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Well, I guess a lot's happened since I last updated this thing. I suppose the big news is that I'm moving to the states, well, California to be exact. My agent suggested it and now that there isn't anything keeping me here I finally decided it could probably be pretty great for my career. So, after we wrap on the movie, which should be by Christmas time at the latest, I'll be packed and on my way to sunny LA. And I'm going to become a part-time beach bum. The truth is, I'm scared out of my mind to move there. I'm not going to know anyone. It's not really where I'd rather be. But you know what, if Craig wants to figure himself out on his own, and wants me to figure myself out, it can't happen in Toronto. It just can't. Even if he leaves again, it's like...everywhere I go there's some stupid memory of Craig and me, and it's just too much. Even after he realized he was wrong about the Spinner thing, I was the one throwing myself out there. And I was the one getting rejected again. And I don't want to feel that way anymore. I'm so sick of being the vulnerable one who gets rejected or put on the back burner. If this is what he wants, then I have to start over. I don't have any other choice.
So that's good news. But I promise everyone will get their Christmas presents before I leave. :)
Other than that big news, I've just been doing the usual. Shooting the movie a zillion hours a week and just...hanging out during my downtime. And when I say hanging out, I mean you can usually find me getting ridiculously trashed at a local club. Sometimes at the strip club Alex works at (oddly enough it's actually pretty fun) and sometimes just a random dance club. Gotta live it up while you're single, right? Watched a movie and went out a couple times with Spin. Speaking of which, I have a picture of us being really big dorks one night....
Anyway, that's about it. Craig's album launch is this week. I'm not exactly looking forward to it. I mean, of course I have to go, I've been supporting him since the beginning, it's just going to be really weird. Spin's going with me though, so at least I don't have to go alone. Emma, WHY did you go into disappearing again, I have been trying to call you! Anyway, if you guys want to do anything, you know my number. :)
So that's good news. But I promise everyone will get their Christmas presents before I leave. :)
Other than that big news, I've just been doing the usual. Shooting the movie a zillion hours a week and just...hanging out during my downtime. And when I say hanging out, I mean you can usually find me getting ridiculously trashed at a local club. Sometimes at the strip club Alex works at (oddly enough it's actually pretty fun) and sometimes just a random dance club. Gotta live it up while you're single, right? Watched a movie and went out a couple times with Spin. Speaking of which, I have a picture of us being really big dorks one night....
Anyway, that's about it. Craig's album launch is this week. I'm not exactly looking forward to it. I mean, of course I have to go, I've been supporting him since the beginning, it's just going to be really weird. Spin's going with me though, so at least I don't have to go alone. Emma, WHY did you go into disappearing again, I have been trying to call you! Anyway, if you guys want to do anything, you know my number. :)