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[mannadonn]

Found.

Hands: shaking.

Breath: deep, short.

Found.

Been looking for 2 1/2 months. Finally found. The green book. There all along. The tasks written. The tasks completed.

Also. Words. Journal. Thoughts. Everything. Spelled out. Black and white.

Shower. Water replacing tears.

Reading. Hands: shaking. Heart: pounding. Tears: NO. Not allowed. Refused.

Must not feel. Shut down. Break away.

So tired.

So very tired...

Falling.

Fight.

Failing.

Freezing.

Frozen.

Finished.