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Wow
I know what I post here is usually thoughts and emotions. But all I can think right now is I've had the craziest fucking night. I wanna go back to jersey and sanity now please. Thanksss.
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I hate everything. Really.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm a fucking scummy douchebag. I'm sorry everything was so fucked up. I'm really sorry I suck. I don't want to go back to before, but I want you to know- I am sorry. I really do and always will love you. I'm sorry I can't actually talk to you about anything without being upset, because I'm so lost on how I feel. I preoccupy ( Read more... ) -
down.
I had a great day today. I posted on tumblr about how I went to this new program on campus for networking with individuals in recovery. I haven't been put in a position to think about using again. I say I'm 10 months clean even though I drink. but for me- being clean is more about the narcotics aspect than the drinking part. Drinking isn't really ( Read more... ) -
I've missed you.
I know we're not together. I know were not perfect, by any means. But I'm glad you're in my life. I'm glad I have you back. I know you're not technically mine but still... I wish I could fix everything with you and Catalina. I wish she wasn't a fucking dickwad. Ugh. The things she says and does make me wanna throw her off a cliff. I wouldn't- but ( Read more... ) -
Christina Victoria
I don't know how to talk about everything that has been going on with us. I'm so bad at talking and I hate it. I love you. I hate this friend thing. I don't want us to be over. I want to not hurt. I never should have said I think we should be done. Ever. Some of me wants to just get over to move the fuck on. Because we just keep stringing this out ( Read more... ) -
I'm sorry I keep fucking up. A lot.
I feel like I look back and it just seems like I'm trying to fuck with you or dick you over or something, and I'm really not trying to- I just don't know how to live or be or exist. I know. Like the fuck. I'm selfish right. I'm sorry I am because you probs say it like 100 + times every time I see or talk to you. My life's slowly falling apart and ( Read more... ) -
I'm starting my life over.
This is no longer me.
I'm starting anew.
If you have my new LJ, read it. Let's be friends.
If you don't, It's because it is not for you to read.
Follow my tumblr.
AHSchreiner.
Get at it muhhfuckahs. :)
Love the life you have, because not everyone gets a redo like me.
I'm thankful for a second chance.
I want to take every advantage. -
Plaid.
The word "typical comes to mind.
It's a stereotype, so I try to find,
an original.
An Individual-
One with a heart,
who's not afraid to start-
something new.
Something greater than you-
and me, Something wild.
While still knowing,
They're only a child.
Life's not meant to be serious.
And I search, but find myself delirious.
And fearing this.
Are you hearing ( Read more... ) -
I wish I could move
Italia would be beautiful ( Read more... ) -
solstice.
its only half way through December, but to me, its the solstice. I can look back on the past couple weeks, and realize it has been hard. I know it can only get better. I'm purging my self from the bad things. only letting more light in. tonight, a friend texted me for drugs. an ex friend I guess. we haven't talked much since September.. I decided a ( Read more... )