Just some thoughts
Articulating. To convey a message. I believe people that are "enlightened" chose to remain silent because how do you speak of something somebody else just cannot comprehend. And all the wasted breathes of hidden messages of what I want to believe is just damn intelligent. Or to think some one is relaying a message by word play,... " oh I know what you mean :wink wink:" then I'm just looked at as crazy or maybe they just didn't want to let the cat out of the bag ;).
Nothing is more reshrening than to speak to someone that just gets it. Understanding everything you said or did not say. This connection that leaves you feeling new and peaceful in the moment. These tiny interactions that can linger on for a lifetime. These random strangers that leave you questioning what if? I have been feeling so disconnected lately. In my own bubble. (Not saying I'm not blessed just been isolated.) Sometimes it can be a real struggle to get out of my house even have people over. My EGO likes to get the best of me. Self evaluation becomes my own worst enemie. And yes I am my own worst critic.
I've been waking up feeling like shit lately. I wake up feeling like I'm dying of dehydration. And I haven't had a sip of alcohol since June prolly be feeling a lot worse if I had been drinking. Oh and another thing is I'll be waking up and for example I woke up and look at my bottled water but it had no cap on it but it really did and it re appeared after I woke up a bit same thing with lily I woke up looked in her crib and she wasn't there but really was and appeared it was really strange..
Out of all the crazy upside down conspiracy thoughts. I have determined a couple of things.
That fear is the opposite of love. Hate is just a category under fear.
That love is a universal language that unites us fear separates us.
So when I do read about the end of the world or a new world order or reptilian aliens that run the planet ( and i must admit some videos on conspiracy have made me out right angery and weep.) I must remind myself that it is one thing to be informed but it is another to live In a constant state of fear. And sometimes I eat this shit up like a turkey on thanksgiving gobble fucking gobble.
And another thought that the reason that death scares me is that I'm utterly afraid to loose my sence of self. I may continue as a energetic force but what if I am no longer "me" and then I have to ask myself. Why does this scare me so much. Because all I have ever know was this little voice in my head and there is something so odd about being humans we have such crazy egos on the scale of things were are fucking tiny.thats all for now.........
Nothing is more reshrening than to speak to someone that just gets it. Understanding everything you said or did not say. This connection that leaves you feeling new and peaceful in the moment. These tiny interactions that can linger on for a lifetime. These random strangers that leave you questioning what if? I have been feeling so disconnected lately. In my own bubble. (Not saying I'm not blessed just been isolated.) Sometimes it can be a real struggle to get out of my house even have people over. My EGO likes to get the best of me. Self evaluation becomes my own worst enemie. And yes I am my own worst critic.
I've been waking up feeling like shit lately. I wake up feeling like I'm dying of dehydration. And I haven't had a sip of alcohol since June prolly be feeling a lot worse if I had been drinking. Oh and another thing is I'll be waking up and for example I woke up and look at my bottled water but it had no cap on it but it really did and it re appeared after I woke up a bit same thing with lily I woke up looked in her crib and she wasn't there but really was and appeared it was really strange..
Out of all the crazy upside down conspiracy thoughts. I have determined a couple of things.
That fear is the opposite of love. Hate is just a category under fear.
That love is a universal language that unites us fear separates us.
So when I do read about the end of the world or a new world order or reptilian aliens that run the planet ( and i must admit some videos on conspiracy have made me out right angery and weep.) I must remind myself that it is one thing to be informed but it is another to live In a constant state of fear. And sometimes I eat this shit up like a turkey on thanksgiving gobble fucking gobble.
And another thought that the reason that death scares me is that I'm utterly afraid to loose my sence of self. I may continue as a energetic force but what if I am no longer "me" and then I have to ask myself. Why does this scare me so much. Because all I have ever know was this little voice in my head and there is something so odd about being humans we have such crazy egos on the scale of things were are fucking tiny.thats all for now.........