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I just realized that the Broke Bastard diet is a bad thing. I mean, calling it that is like making fun of those with eating disorders like anorexia, and for that I apologize.
That being said, when I checked my weight yesterday I was at 345. I hadan't eaten all day. I finally got my paycheck and got it cashed. I also ate at KFC, bad llama, but damn it was so good. I needed some real meat, or as real as KFC gets. I feel like ten times the person I have been the last week. Maybe my mood will improve. From here, though I plan to get healthier stuff like chicken salads and eggs, baby carrots and apples. Maybe some almonds and banana chips from the bulk isle at Fred Myers. I want to eat things in the middle four layers of the food pyramid only to see if and how that will help.
I still think a lot about Ash, but not so much when I watch this new kdrama The Master's Sun. I blew through the first half of it in one day! That is eight episodes. I don't know if I ever watched that many episodes in one sitting like that. Most kdrama's are 16-24 episodes, just to let you know, and they start and finish in that time. That is kind of what I like about them. There is so much information packed into those 16 episodes. The Master's Sun is about a girl who can see ghosts and is tormented by them, but she finds some relief in this man she meets, who for some reason makes the ghosts disappear (or at least makes it so she can't see or hear them) whenever they touch. The man doesn't believe in ghosts and thinks she's crazy at first, until she lets out that she has seen this woman of his past, and he make it so they stay together a bit until they find out the mystery of the woman's passing. It is awesome. I think it was the show I was watching before that Discovery of Romance that has me thinking of Ash so much. Discovery of Romance is about a couple who broke up after 5 years who then meet up another five years later and keep crossing paths. A lot of the issue with Ash and me kind of came up in the kdrama, so I think that has a lot to do with it, and why there is some hope that maybe... But I really don't want to be doing that. I felt I was in the relationship alone and I feel I am in this sort of thought process alone too. I need to get this out of my head.
Erin
That being said, when I checked my weight yesterday I was at 345. I hadan't eaten all day. I finally got my paycheck and got it cashed. I also ate at KFC, bad llama, but damn it was so good. I needed some real meat, or as real as KFC gets. I feel like ten times the person I have been the last week. Maybe my mood will improve. From here, though I plan to get healthier stuff like chicken salads and eggs, baby carrots and apples. Maybe some almonds and banana chips from the bulk isle at Fred Myers. I want to eat things in the middle four layers of the food pyramid only to see if and how that will help.
I still think a lot about Ash, but not so much when I watch this new kdrama The Master's Sun. I blew through the first half of it in one day! That is eight episodes. I don't know if I ever watched that many episodes in one sitting like that. Most kdrama's are 16-24 episodes, just to let you know, and they start and finish in that time. That is kind of what I like about them. There is so much information packed into those 16 episodes. The Master's Sun is about a girl who can see ghosts and is tormented by them, but she finds some relief in this man she meets, who for some reason makes the ghosts disappear (or at least makes it so she can't see or hear them) whenever they touch. The man doesn't believe in ghosts and thinks she's crazy at first, until she lets out that she has seen this woman of his past, and he make it so they stay together a bit until they find out the mystery of the woman's passing. It is awesome. I think it was the show I was watching before that Discovery of Romance that has me thinking of Ash so much. Discovery of Romance is about a couple who broke up after 5 years who then meet up another five years later and keep crossing paths. A lot of the issue with Ash and me kind of came up in the kdrama, so I think that has a lot to do with it, and why there is some hope that maybe... But I really don't want to be doing that. I felt I was in the relationship alone and I feel I am in this sort of thought process alone too. I need to get this out of my head.
Erin