Shit shit shit shit
I feel like I'm about to vomit. Mostly due to the fact that I just drank a bunch of chocolate milk during a small lapse of being calm, and now that I've gotten super nervous again it's like there's a massive storm in my belly. So here's the deal.
My friend John, who I mentioned earlier (Lohn Jobo) came up to me at the end of the day today - or rather, he didn't really come up, I was walking to my bus and he just said "Emily"; I turned around and he had the gravest look on his face. I greeted him and he said, "I need to tell you something," so naturally I asked him what. He hesitated and said, "Never mind, I'll tell you later." He looked really, really concerned, and by the time I'd gotten on the bus, my stomach was twisting into knots. Now, the thing that he has to tell me could entail two things: either he could be
1. telling me of some more crap that my ex-boyfriend spurted out to him that may endanger our friendship because I swear to god he has the mouth of a whale and the brains of an ant. There has been a lot of drama regarding my ex lately and John's unfortunately gotten caught up in it.
or 2. confessing his love to me, or something of that nature. And I don't like him in that way. And I have never rejected anyone before in my life. It could also endanger our friendship as well, depending on how awkward things get.
Now there's a message in my Facebook inbox from him and I am deathly afraid to open it. Shit shit shit shit.
My friend John, who I mentioned earlier (Lohn Jobo) came up to me at the end of the day today - or rather, he didn't really come up, I was walking to my bus and he just said "Emily"; I turned around and he had the gravest look on his face. I greeted him and he said, "I need to tell you something," so naturally I asked him what. He hesitated and said, "Never mind, I'll tell you later." He looked really, really concerned, and by the time I'd gotten on the bus, my stomach was twisting into knots. Now, the thing that he has to tell me could entail two things: either he could be
1. telling me of some more crap that my ex-boyfriend spurted out to him that may endanger our friendship because I swear to god he has the mouth of a whale and the brains of an ant. There has been a lot of drama regarding my ex lately and John's unfortunately gotten caught up in it.
or 2. confessing his love to me, or something of that nature. And I don't like him in that way. And I have never rejected anyone before in my life. It could also endanger our friendship as well, depending on how awkward things get.
Now there's a message in my Facebook inbox from him and I am deathly afraid to open it. Shit shit shit shit.