It Is About Time
...that I actually returned from a school-induced stupor. I'll try to snap out of it, at least. The term's finished so I'm no longer stressing to get things in. But believe me, once I start on that English essay that I was supposed to begin a month ago and is due in a week (which will probably happen tonight), things will not be so sunny. In fact, I will probably explode.
With that pleasant note, let me give you all a meme. I stole it from buttercup_77 , who stole it from yeahyeahjess . I thought I would do everyone a favour and continue the stalkery tradition. YOU'RE WELCOME.
BRITISH
[ ] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[x] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs. (Chavs make me want to kill everything.)
[ ] It's football.... not soccer.
Total = 3
AUSTRALIAN
[ ] You wear flipflops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops "thongs" not flipflops.
[x] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned. (In Summer anyway lol)
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an Australian something.
Total = 4
ITALIAN
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[ ] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''.
[ ] Pizza/spaghetti is the best foods in the world.
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total = 2
SPANISH
[ ] You say 'member instead of remember.
[x] You speak Spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe LiKe ThIs On YoUr CoMpUtEr
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Puta is. (TU MADRE. Aharr harr.)
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total = 5
RUSSIAN
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[ ] You have more than one vodka bottle in your house.
[ ] You know the difference between channel 1 and RTVI.
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[ ] You don't get cold easily.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[ ] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
[ ] You eat sushi more than once a week. (You'd think this would be in the Asian category.)
[x] You love listening to techno.
Total = 2
POLISH
[ ] Your parents let you drink.
[ ] You know what a pizda is.
[ ] You have Pierogi at least once a week.
[ ] People always ask to see your "kielbasa" checking if your Polish.
[ ] People randomly call you their best friend.
[ ] You have made/know what pisanki are.
[ ] You laughed when Poland beat the USA in the 2002 World Cup.
Total = 0
IRISH
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[ ] You have a bad temper
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a y, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[x] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a St. Patty's day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have/had blonde hair.
[x] You have/had freckles. (Very few.)
Total = 3
AFRICAN AMERICAN
[ ] You say nigga casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[x] You like rap. (Only if it is by badass Koreans.)
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun.
[x] You like chicken.
[ ] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can ‘sing’ gospel.
[ ] You smoke newports.
Total = 2
ASIAN
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[ ] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from Asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're Chinese.
[x] You call hurricanes typhoons. (Sometimes, depends on what comes to mind first.)
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total = 3
GERMAN
[x] You like bread.
[ ] You think American Chocolate is good.
[x] You speak some German. (Like three words. :P )
[x] You know what Schnitzel is. (Dude, my dad makes bitchin' schnitzel.)
[x] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school
[x] You're under 5'4".
Total = 6 (With a last name like Scholz, and my great grandmother's last name being Schmaulenburger, I would expect nothing less. I only like German chocolate, though. I didn't know Germans liked American chocolate...)
CANADIAN
[ ] You like to ride 4 wheelers.
[ ] You love beer.
[ ] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is
[ ] You speak some French.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[x] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch Degrassi.
Total = 1
FRENCH
[x] You like french toast
[ ] You love wine
[ ] You speak a little or are fluent in french
[x] You have eaten a snail.
[ ] You like fashion.
[ ] You have been to France.
[ ] You are either a Catholic, a Muslim, a Protestant or a Jew
Total = 2
AMERICAN
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non-Christians.
[ ] You've been to more then 5 states
[x] You're lazy. (I cannot deny it.)
[ ] You are not cultured.
[ ] You hate abortion
[x] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[ ] You shop at walmart.
Total = 2
NORWEGIAN
[ ] you know what lefse is
[ ] you can speak some Norwegian
[ ] you love trolls
[ ] you know what lutefisk is
[ ] you have been whale hunting/seeing
[ ] food made with potatoes and flour rule
[ ] fish and/or whale is a huge part of your diet
[x] you have blue or green eyes and have blonde or brown hair
[ ] you know how to fish and have fished before
Total = 1
I am the most superest mishmash.
So now I'm going to gush about Cape Hatteras (an island off of North Carolina). And I am also going to put this under a cut because apparently gushing for me means vomiting up tsunamis.
There's only 10 (10? Might be 9.) more days until I go there and I am excited as hell. Unfortunately, though, I'm also a little apprehensive. It'll be the first year when exactly half of the crew has to leave early for college classes and final exams and, for one of them, work. Every year we diminish a little bit, but this year there's only going to be three of us. My sister's not even coming down this year because of complications with college and her boyfriend and the like, and on Tuesday or so (we drive down on the Saturday before), Jamie, Josh and Alex will all have to leave, which leaves the rest of the week up to the rest of us. And no, I don't expect you to know these people, or even decipher that last sentence because reading it back it sounds like I was being repeatedly smacked in the head while writing it.
So that leaves Brendan, Brian and me, and I suppose Brian's little brother Andrew if you can count him (he's 10 but acts like a five year old, so we try to avoid him as much as possible - his parents are also overprotective of him). So here are the complications with this:
- I'm pretty sure Brian's had a thing for me for a while. (Brian is my age.) I like him as a friend, nothing more though. He's not my type in the slightest. And ALSO:
- I have been in love with Brendan for five years. Well, I wouldn't call it love necessarily because I only see him one week of every year and all the rest of the time simply fawn over him by my lonesome. But I have had a deep affection for him since I met him, and despite him being one year younger than me, he is very mature and I hold the greatest respect for him. He has had to deal with a lot of tough shit in his life too, but I won't get into that. Just very emotionally and mentally straining happenings.
- I don't think Brendan likes me very much. That might just be me being me, as I'm always second-guessing relationships with others, whether amorous or not. I'm pretty unstable on the opinion I assume he has of me. At times he will initiate conversation, other times he will completely avoid it. Mind you, this is all over the internet, so anything could be the cause; he could be busy, stressed, distracted, etc. etc. and I would have no idea. But I still have this niggling little feeling that he just finds me annoying. But I think if I ever found out he hated me, it would probably kill me. Figuratively, of course.
Bleh. And this just when I was getting super self-confident this year, too. I'm probably just paranoid as usual, but no matter what it would be very nice to get some closure. I don't know if I should just ask him outright what his opinion is of me when I see him again, or just leave it be and slowly win him over with my charms and witchcraft. :P I was going to say award-winning smile, but my smile is pretty damn awkward. But I still have the feeling we'll get along even better this year, because I'm not so afraid to say what's on my mind anymore.
Because, like I said, I'm super self-confident this year. I mean, REALLY self-confident. I don't know what the hell brought it on, but it's amazing. I feel invincible. Comparing this year to freshman year? I was such a socially awkward fuck, haha. I was always too shy to talk to anyone; I was extremely reserved and afraid of what others thought of me, and seldom got up the courage to approach others. Now I do it without thinking. It's just... incredible. I never thought it would happen, but it finally did, and I am ecstatic.
And you know what's the cherry on top? I can totally take criticisms now, when before I would practically break down crying over it. My ex-boyfriend's being a complete bitch and I just... don't care. He told my friend I was poison the other day. And I laughed at him. This is such a milestone for me.
Today I accidentally bumped into a girl whom I've never spoken to before in the hallway. She told me she loved my haircut and wants to have hers cut similarly. I was taken aback but I smiled instinctively and thanked her very much, and told her who I had it modeled after before we parted ways. It was a very short conversation, but it made my day. Apparently I have admirers from afar. It's so damn surprising that I don't even know what to make of it. I feel like I have my own Suzuki Seiichiro now. :3 That's pretty much the only way to describe it.
I've started making new friends, it's just lovely. They're all from such vastly different social circles, too. Leane is from the "nerdy" type kids, the ones who read manga and watch anime and play video games a lot, but are less socially accepted by the majority. (They're some of the friendliest people you'll ever meet, though.) Cody is from the stoner group, but could easily fit into the nerdy group if it weren't for the fact that he's more socially comfortable and smokes occasionally - his girlfriend is also restraining him. I still have my beef with her for past things she's subjected me to (depression ahoy hoy), but I don't let that stop myself from having a lovely friendship with Cody. I just don't talk to her, and refer to her as "The Bitch". :D And then there's John, who I call by the nickname of Lohn Jobo (his name spoonerized). He most likely has a thing for me, which I find pretty flattering. He's pretty much one of the mellow people in the school; the group he usually hangs with doesn't really have a label. And apparently I am not racist, because it totally did not occur to me that he was technically a light-skinned black dude until he pointed it out. Colour literally means nothing to me. Oh, I'm also starting to become friends with this kid Chris who takes a bit to get warmed up to you, but when he does he's a total puppy dog. The neutral look on his face always seems so worried, haha. He's a pretty funny kid.
Today in Creative Writing, Cody, John, and Chris all made Junior Birdman masks following my lead. It was great. Cody also has a habit of making farting noises with his head slapping against his shoulder. The crevice between the clavicle and the shoulder blade when you raise up your shoulder creates a lot of suction, apparently. It also looks super ridiculous when he does it.
I should probably stop rambling before I bore you all to death, if that hasn't already occurred. I'm just... really happy. This hasn't happened in a long time, and I'm cherishing it with all of my might.
TL;DR - CAPE HATTERAS IS SOON AND IMMA GET ALL UP IN BRENDAN'S SHIT IN A LOVING WAY MAYBE AND THIS EXCITES ME.
ALSO I HAVE FRIENDS NOW YAY
With that pleasant note, let me give you all a meme. I stole it from buttercup_77 , who stole it from yeahyeahjess . I thought I would do everyone a favour and continue the stalkery tradition. YOU'RE WELCOME.
BRITISH
[ ] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[x] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs. (Chavs make me want to kill everything.)
[ ] It's football.... not soccer.
Total = 3
AUSTRALIAN
[ ] You wear flipflops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops "thongs" not flipflops.
[x] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned. (In Summer anyway lol)
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an Australian something.
Total = 4
ITALIAN
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[ ] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''.
[ ] Pizza/spaghetti is the best foods in the world.
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total = 2
SPANISH
[ ] You say 'member instead of remember.
[x] You speak Spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe LiKe ThIs On YoUr CoMpUtEr
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Puta is. (TU MADRE. Aharr harr.)
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total = 5
RUSSIAN
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[ ] You have more than one vodka bottle in your house.
[ ] You know the difference between channel 1 and RTVI.
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[ ] You don't get cold easily.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[ ] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
[ ] You eat sushi more than once a week. (You'd think this would be in the Asian category.)
[x] You love listening to techno.
Total = 2
POLISH
[ ] Your parents let you drink.
[ ] You know what a pizda is.
[ ] You have Pierogi at least once a week.
[ ] People always ask to see your "kielbasa" checking if your Polish.
[ ] People randomly call you their best friend.
[ ] You have made/know what pisanki are.
[ ] You laughed when Poland beat the USA in the 2002 World Cup.
Total = 0
IRISH
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[ ] You have a bad temper
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a y, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[x] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a St. Patty's day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have/had blonde hair.
[x] You have/had freckles. (Very few.)
Total = 3
AFRICAN AMERICAN
[ ] You say nigga casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[x] You like rap. (Only if it is by badass Koreans.)
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun.
[x] You like chicken.
[ ] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can ‘sing’ gospel.
[ ] You smoke newports.
Total = 2
ASIAN
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[ ] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from Asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're Chinese.
[x] You call hurricanes typhoons. (Sometimes, depends on what comes to mind first.)
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total = 3
GERMAN
[x] You like bread.
[ ] You think American Chocolate is good.
[x] You speak some German. (Like three words. :P )
[x] You know what Schnitzel is. (Dude, my dad makes bitchin' schnitzel.)
[x] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school
[x] You're under 5'4".
Total = 6 (With a last name like Scholz, and my great grandmother's last name being Schmaulenburger, I would expect nothing less. I only like German chocolate, though. I didn't know Germans liked American chocolate...)
CANADIAN
[ ] You like to ride 4 wheelers.
[ ] You love beer.
[ ] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is
[ ] You speak some French.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[x] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch Degrassi.
Total = 1
FRENCH
[x] You like french toast
[ ] You love wine
[ ] You speak a little or are fluent in french
[x] You have eaten a snail.
[ ] You like fashion.
[ ] You have been to France.
[ ] You are either a Catholic, a Muslim, a Protestant or a Jew
Total = 2
AMERICAN
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non-Christians.
[ ] You've been to more then 5 states
[x] You're lazy. (I cannot deny it.)
[ ] You are not cultured.
[ ] You hate abortion
[x] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[ ] You shop at walmart.
Total = 2
NORWEGIAN
[ ] you know what lefse is
[ ] you can speak some Norwegian
[ ] you love trolls
[ ] you know what lutefisk is
[ ] you have been whale hunting/seeing
[ ] food made with potatoes and flour rule
[ ] fish and/or whale is a huge part of your diet
[x] you have blue or green eyes and have blonde or brown hair
[ ] you know how to fish and have fished before
Total = 1
I am the most superest mishmash.
So now I'm going to gush about Cape Hatteras (an island off of North Carolina). And I am also going to put this under a cut because apparently gushing for me means vomiting up tsunamis.
There's only 10 (10? Might be 9.) more days until I go there and I am excited as hell. Unfortunately, though, I'm also a little apprehensive. It'll be the first year when exactly half of the crew has to leave early for college classes and final exams and, for one of them, work. Every year we diminish a little bit, but this year there's only going to be three of us. My sister's not even coming down this year because of complications with college and her boyfriend and the like, and on Tuesday or so (we drive down on the Saturday before), Jamie, Josh and Alex will all have to leave, which leaves the rest of the week up to the rest of us. And no, I don't expect you to know these people, or even decipher that last sentence because reading it back it sounds like I was being repeatedly smacked in the head while writing it.
So that leaves Brendan, Brian and me, and I suppose Brian's little brother Andrew if you can count him (he's 10 but acts like a five year old, so we try to avoid him as much as possible - his parents are also overprotective of him). So here are the complications with this:
- I'm pretty sure Brian's had a thing for me for a while. (Brian is my age.) I like him as a friend, nothing more though. He's not my type in the slightest. And ALSO:
- I have been in love with Brendan for five years. Well, I wouldn't call it love necessarily because I only see him one week of every year and all the rest of the time simply fawn over him by my lonesome. But I have had a deep affection for him since I met him, and despite him being one year younger than me, he is very mature and I hold the greatest respect for him. He has had to deal with a lot of tough shit in his life too, but I won't get into that. Just very emotionally and mentally straining happenings.
- I don't think Brendan likes me very much. That might just be me being me, as I'm always second-guessing relationships with others, whether amorous or not. I'm pretty unstable on the opinion I assume he has of me. At times he will initiate conversation, other times he will completely avoid it. Mind you, this is all over the internet, so anything could be the cause; he could be busy, stressed, distracted, etc. etc. and I would have no idea. But I still have this niggling little feeling that he just finds me annoying. But I think if I ever found out he hated me, it would probably kill me. Figuratively, of course.
Bleh. And this just when I was getting super self-confident this year, too. I'm probably just paranoid as usual, but no matter what it would be very nice to get some closure. I don't know if I should just ask him outright what his opinion is of me when I see him again, or just leave it be and slowly win him over with my charms and witchcraft. :P I was going to say award-winning smile, but my smile is pretty damn awkward. But I still have the feeling we'll get along even better this year, because I'm not so afraid to say what's on my mind anymore.
Because, like I said, I'm super self-confident this year. I mean, REALLY self-confident. I don't know what the hell brought it on, but it's amazing. I feel invincible. Comparing this year to freshman year? I was such a socially awkward fuck, haha. I was always too shy to talk to anyone; I was extremely reserved and afraid of what others thought of me, and seldom got up the courage to approach others. Now I do it without thinking. It's just... incredible. I never thought it would happen, but it finally did, and I am ecstatic.
And you know what's the cherry on top? I can totally take criticisms now, when before I would practically break down crying over it. My ex-boyfriend's being a complete bitch and I just... don't care. He told my friend I was poison the other day. And I laughed at him. This is such a milestone for me.
Today I accidentally bumped into a girl whom I've never spoken to before in the hallway. She told me she loved my haircut and wants to have hers cut similarly. I was taken aback but I smiled instinctively and thanked her very much, and told her who I had it modeled after before we parted ways. It was a very short conversation, but it made my day. Apparently I have admirers from afar. It's so damn surprising that I don't even know what to make of it. I feel like I have my own Suzuki Seiichiro now. :3 That's pretty much the only way to describe it.
I've started making new friends, it's just lovely. They're all from such vastly different social circles, too. Leane is from the "nerdy" type kids, the ones who read manga and watch anime and play video games a lot, but are less socially accepted by the majority. (They're some of the friendliest people you'll ever meet, though.) Cody is from the stoner group, but could easily fit into the nerdy group if it weren't for the fact that he's more socially comfortable and smokes occasionally - his girlfriend is also restraining him. I still have my beef with her for past things she's subjected me to (depression ahoy hoy), but I don't let that stop myself from having a lovely friendship with Cody. I just don't talk to her, and refer to her as "The Bitch". :D And then there's John, who I call by the nickname of Lohn Jobo (his name spoonerized). He most likely has a thing for me, which I find pretty flattering. He's pretty much one of the mellow people in the school; the group he usually hangs with doesn't really have a label. And apparently I am not racist, because it totally did not occur to me that he was technically a light-skinned black dude until he pointed it out. Colour literally means nothing to me. Oh, I'm also starting to become friends with this kid Chris who takes a bit to get warmed up to you, but when he does he's a total puppy dog. The neutral look on his face always seems so worried, haha. He's a pretty funny kid.
Today in Creative Writing, Cody, John, and Chris all made Junior Birdman masks following my lead. It was great. Cody also has a habit of making farting noises with his head slapping against his shoulder. The crevice between the clavicle and the shoulder blade when you raise up your shoulder creates a lot of suction, apparently. It also looks super ridiculous when he does it.
I should probably stop rambling before I bore you all to death, if that hasn't already occurred. I'm just... really happy. This hasn't happened in a long time, and I'm cherishing it with all of my might.
TL;DR - CAPE HATTERAS IS SOON AND IMMA GET ALL UP IN BRENDAN'S SHIT IN A LOVING WAY MAYBE AND THIS EXCITES ME.
ALSO I HAVE FRIENDS NOW YAY