Different
I miss the days when I really felt I was something -- the days where I thought I had something important to say.
I used to fill my livejournals with impassioned ramblings of what I thought of world news and politics, now all I talk about it meaningless bullshit.
What happened to me? Why have my old interests taken a backseat to shallow consciousness.
I never wear make-up anymore. Graham got it out of me and now I feel as if my face doesn't take make-up anymore.
I'm barely a shadow of the person I used to be.
I have been happy for the past few days but now I feel depression sneaking back up on me. It's an old friend and I'm almost welcoming it. Why do we embrace sadness but reject happiness?
Maybe that's just how I deal with things but I have a feeling I'm not the only one.
I don't like Obama. He's fake, he's inexperienced, his policies are all rhetoric -- they'll never be put in action. How will he get the money for it? No intelligent person would tax the people of this country when its economy is so poor.
McCain doesn't please me either though. I feel as if he wouldn't do anything; he has nothing to prove. It's frustrating to be in such of a stalemate. Where is this country going? Last night I had a dream that we were in the midst of a depression. The government for some reason was destroying all the food. All the food, ironically enough, was corn. I guess in my dream the people of America only ate corn.
I wonder what this means? Anyways, it scared me.
Tonight I went over to Corey's house and we baked a cake. It was chocolate on chocolate and then sprinkled, kitkated, rolo'd, and hershey kissed. I ate a piece and almost threw up. It was delicious but just sooo rich.
I love Corey, we always have a great time together.
I had such an odd night. First I saw two deer, which is pretty rare in these parts. Then when Corey and I were driving to his house we saw a black cat flopping and flipping in seizure in the middle of the road. It was too much, I had to pull into the nearest driveway until it's erratic movements subsided. It was the weirdest thing, even though its little body was flipping and twisting through the air it never took its eyes off of us. It had green eyes made bright in my headlights. It was probably the scariest thing I have ever seen.
Happy Friday the 13th everyone!
Anyways, I'm ready to go to bed.
Goodnight