theres no place like home....

[mackitmp06]

im about to explode!!!!!!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!why me!!! i dont even know what to do when i get home. i feel awkward and weird. im so sick of being here i cant begin to explain it. its been almost 3 months now and i ahve to spend my 18th birthday here. with no friends. this shit is beyond sucking.im going to get trashed on my birthday so i dont have to remember it.anyways one of my dads brothers is insisting that i go visit them and ive been putting it off. but i have to go tomorrow and i am not looking forward to it. i went to see my dads sister in valdivia and she gave me a your on the wrong path speech and i know my uncle is going to do the same i am not looking forward to it at all. but whatever i just have to swallow and breath and go. i hate doing family visits especially by myself God only knows what the hell my dads family thinks about me. ha its going to be just great let me tell you..woohoo im so amped. yeah right. well anyways its another day in my little lonely world. how exciting. this is great. i mean it. i miss my friends......just a little bit longer. i can do this.i can do this. or can i???????
peace
macki