i dont know what to write anymore...

[mackitmp06]

i dont have anything to say. not even this beautiful country and inspiring hills and sweeping sea cant spark any life inside of me. i feel so dead because i have to let go.i want to grasp so tightly to everything and never let go but i know i cant,i see the damage it did tome and i still feel it to this day. i miss my friends i feel so alone here. i need them. i am so tired and exhausted.but whats life without a challenge i guess right? this is an everlasting nightmare so it seems.
macki

what do you do when theres nothing left
when you murdered your own love
tore apart your heart
but it doesnt matter now
it never did
i stand here bleeding
draining life from every pore
and it doesnt matter now
now i know it never did
the agonizing beauty
of a painted sky
and the sleepless starry nights
blur into oblivion
and all i want is you you you
and with every tear that hits the floor
with every trail that marks my face
every scar that paints a picture
tried tested failed
and all these things
add to the flow
as i stand here bleeding
they bring no reciprocity
no justice in a twisted world
cruel intentions took the best of me
and with every tear that hits the floor
as silence hits and beckons me
my very tears resonate and sing
a song no man can forget
but all i want is you you you
and i dont know what to do
i am here pleading desperation
who will save my crashing nation?