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She's dead to me she's fucking dead and I never wanna see the whore EVER again!!!! Know what she's done?!?! She's told the police my dad raped her!! NO HE FUCKING DIDN'T!!!! They were never alone. Me or my sister were always there! Now I can't sleep cos I'm scared their believe her fucked up story and come kick the door down at 4 am again. I'm so tired I only slept alittle yesterday. I hate her I really fucking hate her and if she tries getting back in here I won't hesitate in hitting her.
I mean today we found out ALOT of stuff. My nan was talking to my sister and she let it slip that that guy has been calling my mum after she swore it had ended with him. She has an engagment ring on. She tried saying Oh I got this from a charity shop. Like fuck she did!! She kept letting things slip when she spoke to my brither... It's all falling into place. My dad pulled her about it and she went into her aggressive state like she does when she's been caught and tries to lie her way out of it. I wish it'd happened in the house then we'd have the injuction. But now we met her in town (my dad, my sister and me) and she shouted as loud as she could. She was drawing as much attention to us as she could. She was shouting so many lies at my dad and I was backing him up saying he didn't know about this or that and then I got angry and told her exactly what I think. I said:
"Your nothing but a fucking lying whore! You use your body to get what you want and if it doesn't work for you then you get violent! I hate you! Dad isn't lying you are. He's been decent in all of this but no you don't like that we're together as a family so your doing what you can to destory that. You keep moaning that you have no money well that's not our problem your the one that left! You moan about how your kids hate you and say oh your dad is poisoning your mind! We're not fucking 5 we have our own minds and we know what your doing and frankly it disgusts us! Go back to your child abuser boyfriend and go be a prevert with him! We don't want you we all hate you so just fuck off!!"
Then me and my dad walked off my sister made my mum follow. It's not what I wanted to say. I wanted to say ALOT more but there was a crowd there. I wanted them all to know what she's done to us but no my dad wouldn't have liked that so I didn't say all that I wanted to.
So my dad drove her somewhere and then he tried to contact her but couldn't reach her. My sister called my nan and cos she thought it was Nikki she hung uo but then Vicky phoned back and asked nan if mum was there and my nan said no I don't know anything about it. Now why would she say that unless she knew? My mum has fucked off somewhere and then my dad got a text saying your done I'm telling the cops you raped me. How fucking sick is it to lie about that!?!?1 Esp when I was indecently assaulted when I was 6. It's not a thing you lie about.
My eldest sister phoned me in a painc cos of it and I was and still am panicked. If my dad gets arrested my mum will be straight in with her child abuser and we'd be out. My dad is upset as you can imagine cos he fell for it again and he really does have love for her. My sister is very upset. She said all I want is a mum who loves me so I took as much as I could while she was here. She's wrote a poem on it. Colin is mad and disappointed. He knew something was up and he kept asking her questions and she kept messing up like they asked her if she'd finished with the bloke and she said "well I'm down here and he's up there that says it all doesn't it" and they said to my dad it doesn't say it all does it. Then he said something and her answer was "well I'm not going back up there just yet" and he heard her say on the phone "O'm only here to sort my mother out" Well she told us she was staying (I'm glad she isn't though) but she's angry reckoning we lied to her cos her mother seems set. No nan told us no one was helping her and kept saying people were stealing her money. How were we supposed to know?
Enough about that fucking slag! I can't go on with it I'm going to break something if I do. I'm already crying constantly.
Went to the doc. She said there's nothing wrong with my legs. BULLSHIT I CAN HARDLY WALK!!! Then I told her about being depressed and she said "Your not depressed. Your 20 your far to young to be depressed" FUCK OFF AM I!!! 5 years old get it. It can strike at any time. The I said about the suicidal thought and she said VERY saracastically "Oh so you'd kill yourself would you" ok if I was a very bad depressive then that would've made me go home and kill myself. The I said "well 2 of my friends in America are 18 and have it" and she was all like" Oh well the Americans blow EVERYTHING out of propation" I just walked out. My brother is signed off from work cos he's suffering from depression. He's 25 almost. My sister was 28 when she got it. My eldest brother was 17 when he had it. So fuck what she says I'm getting a new doc.
I gotta go my head hurts. Please I hope the police don't come I don't wanna be out in the street tonight...
I mean today we found out ALOT of stuff. My nan was talking to my sister and she let it slip that that guy has been calling my mum after she swore it had ended with him. She has an engagment ring on. She tried saying Oh I got this from a charity shop. Like fuck she did!! She kept letting things slip when she spoke to my brither... It's all falling into place. My dad pulled her about it and she went into her aggressive state like she does when she's been caught and tries to lie her way out of it. I wish it'd happened in the house then we'd have the injuction. But now we met her in town (my dad, my sister and me) and she shouted as loud as she could. She was drawing as much attention to us as she could. She was shouting so many lies at my dad and I was backing him up saying he didn't know about this or that and then I got angry and told her exactly what I think. I said:
"Your nothing but a fucking lying whore! You use your body to get what you want and if it doesn't work for you then you get violent! I hate you! Dad isn't lying you are. He's been decent in all of this but no you don't like that we're together as a family so your doing what you can to destory that. You keep moaning that you have no money well that's not our problem your the one that left! You moan about how your kids hate you and say oh your dad is poisoning your mind! We're not fucking 5 we have our own minds and we know what your doing and frankly it disgusts us! Go back to your child abuser boyfriend and go be a prevert with him! We don't want you we all hate you so just fuck off!!"
Then me and my dad walked off my sister made my mum follow. It's not what I wanted to say. I wanted to say ALOT more but there was a crowd there. I wanted them all to know what she's done to us but no my dad wouldn't have liked that so I didn't say all that I wanted to.
So my dad drove her somewhere and then he tried to contact her but couldn't reach her. My sister called my nan and cos she thought it was Nikki she hung uo but then Vicky phoned back and asked nan if mum was there and my nan said no I don't know anything about it. Now why would she say that unless she knew? My mum has fucked off somewhere and then my dad got a text saying your done I'm telling the cops you raped me. How fucking sick is it to lie about that!?!?1 Esp when I was indecently assaulted when I was 6. It's not a thing you lie about.
My eldest sister phoned me in a painc cos of it and I was and still am panicked. If my dad gets arrested my mum will be straight in with her child abuser and we'd be out. My dad is upset as you can imagine cos he fell for it again and he really does have love for her. My sister is very upset. She said all I want is a mum who loves me so I took as much as I could while she was here. She's wrote a poem on it. Colin is mad and disappointed. He knew something was up and he kept asking her questions and she kept messing up like they asked her if she'd finished with the bloke and she said "well I'm down here and he's up there that says it all doesn't it" and they said to my dad it doesn't say it all does it. Then he said something and her answer was "well I'm not going back up there just yet" and he heard her say on the phone "O'm only here to sort my mother out" Well she told us she was staying (I'm glad she isn't though) but she's angry reckoning we lied to her cos her mother seems set. No nan told us no one was helping her and kept saying people were stealing her money. How were we supposed to know?
Enough about that fucking slag! I can't go on with it I'm going to break something if I do. I'm already crying constantly.
Went to the doc. She said there's nothing wrong with my legs. BULLSHIT I CAN HARDLY WALK!!! Then I told her about being depressed and she said "Your not depressed. Your 20 your far to young to be depressed" FUCK OFF AM I!!! 5 years old get it. It can strike at any time. The I said about the suicidal thought and she said VERY saracastically "Oh so you'd kill yourself would you" ok if I was a very bad depressive then that would've made me go home and kill myself. The I said "well 2 of my friends in America are 18 and have it" and she was all like" Oh well the Americans blow EVERYTHING out of propation" I just walked out. My brother is signed off from work cos he's suffering from depression. He's 25 almost. My sister was 28 when she got it. My eldest brother was 17 when he had it. So fuck what she says I'm getting a new doc.
I gotta go my head hurts. Please I hope the police don't come I don't wanna be out in the street tonight...