Motivation Proclamation
I wish I could be motivated and passionate about It Works like these other girls and make gobs of money. It's frustrating that I know what I could be making with it but can't bring myself to care and really feel passionately about the products and the company. I guess I could just learn to be more comfortable being fake and exaggerating to people. It's what everyone else's got to be doing at least some of the time! Lbvvs
Same with music, too. I just don't really care about it anymore the way I used to. It kinda got pushed to the back burner when I/we were on drugs and then it just got depressing when Dayna died. Be it going to shows and thinking "this isn't fair! How come their guitarist gets to be all alive and shit?!" Or trying to have band practice and being super picky on who's gonna play guitar. And we also just weren't progressing at all which made it a lot harder to be excited about things. But I don't know, when I see bands posting things on Facebook and being all excited about things it reminds me of what things used to be like for us, but at the same time I can't help but feel like it's pointless and they're a bit delusional. It always seems like bigger things are happening in your mind and practice space than in the grand scheme of things. I don't know... I don't like that I feel that way now and know nothing of what's going on in music. Maybe once I get down to working less days it'll be better cause I'll have time for things.
Speaking of work, I'm about to have an awesome week!
Same with music, too. I just don't really care about it anymore the way I used to. It kinda got pushed to the back burner when I/we were on drugs and then it just got depressing when Dayna died. Be it going to shows and thinking "this isn't fair! How come their guitarist gets to be all alive and shit?!" Or trying to have band practice and being super picky on who's gonna play guitar. And we also just weren't progressing at all which made it a lot harder to be excited about things. But I don't know, when I see bands posting things on Facebook and being all excited about things it reminds me of what things used to be like for us, but at the same time I can't help but feel like it's pointless and they're a bit delusional. It always seems like bigger things are happening in your mind and practice space than in the grand scheme of things. I don't know... I don't like that I feel that way now and know nothing of what's going on in music. Maybe once I get down to working less days it'll be better cause I'll have time for things.
Speaking of work, I'm about to have an awesome week!