Confusion, Lost, Love, and Somewhere Between...

[m3lissa320]

I wish I could just tell you this. I wish you could come over and we could talk and in the middle of my babbling - because you know i would - you'd just kiss me, right at that crusial moment where I'm starting to wonder why I even started talking in the first place. All of it would come rushing back, like it always does. You would hold my crying

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[februarystars72]

Tell him.

[sarah27bamf]

You are my best friend and I dont like seeing you sad. Yea,all the women I know are still harboring feelings for their first loves - I myself found an old cell phone today,I plugged it in and saw "i love you" "i love you more" "i love you more than mice love peanut butter and they actually like peanut butter better than cheese" text messages. And I mean I melted, my stomache did somersaults, i got all goosebummpy, but i didnt cry. i missed, and ive thought the "what ifs" and i obsess over the little things he says... and i dont know what i would do if i had the chance ever again...i cant say id say no. BUT i am really happy with hughie, i think we mesh well,i think we are a good match and i am happy. and the thing is, i know im happier with hughie - truely with my heart happier than i would be if i was with brandon - but i love brandon more. its a give and take. and look at holly...she said she'll never be over her first love, but shes got a rich, cute husband who adores her, she has a great family and shes really happy.

[m3lissa320]

I did.

I feel better.

... we'll see.