Jul 31, 2006 17:33
there are times when small issues are great. and they defeat you.
this is a small issue. and i will defeat it.
i'm worried about things, money mostly... friends, and school. but when one attempts to reach their personal legend the whole world conspires to help...
that better be true.
i'm going to make this good.
and it will be.
the rest, will work itself out.
we need very little... yet we aim for so much.
i need two things. to achieve. and to find love.
i don't want the love now. and i'm working at achieving...
*shrugs*
liz, liza, and amanda are making my life worth living at the moment... and i actually really hope something happens there...
they are, perhaps, the greatest lesbians in the world.
i was thinking about it... and i believe, that despite my shallow first thoughts... i would go with my "stronger" seconds. i know where to aim... i think...
i'm just easily distracted.
liza bought us all drinks last night and we played around for about 2 hours at brasstown. gave me a new view of that place.
i wish, really, that i would have went home with amanda afterwards... but perhaps my decision was best...
regret sucks. but oh well. nothing to do with it but regret. so it does me no good.
we'll party-hardy another time. or, at least, we better.
by the way. you have, by far, the most beautiful hands i have ever seen.
i want nothing more, now, than for those hands to touch me.
once might be enough.
i always said i would find my green eyes. maybe you are my green eyes.
must not rush. and must not search for what we're not looking for...
no love. no love.
but fun. that's different. and infatuation- much different.
i wonder what you think...