Addicted
So why have they not researched the brain enough to discover we can stop being addicted to people faster? Because this feels like an addiction. Well, actually they don't seem to research how to fix any brain problems without drugs. Or at least this research isn't publicized. I read we now know the biochemical pathway for how people feel anxiety. And what do they think we can do with that? Be able to produce drugs that have a more specific target for people with anxiety disorder. Well, sure if I had to choose between drugs or nothing in order to be able to function in life I would choose drugs. But what if there's another option? Considering all the research on how plastic the brain is, there should be a way to alter the chemical pathway that produces anxiety to create less anxiety without drugs. But I'm sure this is harder to research. You can quantify drugs. You can know what they're made of and at least generally what they're doing. Of course the other option would probably involve more effort than taking a drug. I read changing the brain takes concentration and focus. But as we learn we make new connections. Neural connections can be strengthened.
Anyway, back to my point. There are many people who are awesome in my opinion. I mean people who I enjoy being with and who I find interesting to talk to and who make me happy to see them. But I don't feel a strong need to see each of them everyday and they don't give me the same sense of calm when I see them as a certain person. And then I think brain chemistry. And then I think Kesha, Your Love is my Drug. And how long does it have to take to feel like when you first met this person and they were nice and you enjoyed hanging out with them in the same way you enjoy hanging out with any other friend. Then I think of that song The First Cut is the Deepest. It could have a point. The first time you have never gotten over someone before so you feel like it'll never happen. Okay, so these past couple months were less intense than my first relationship. But still, now I know from experience that with time feelings change and you spend time with other people and they also give you joy and it's good. I just ask how long will it take and can I make it happen faster? I would like it if my conscious thought could control the other parts of my brain.
Oh, and I still think I have not seen the sun since I got back to England. That is seven days now. They are calling for sunny intervals today. We'll see. Also, they are calling for a high of 10 and rain on Friday.
Anyway, back to my point. There are many people who are awesome in my opinion. I mean people who I enjoy being with and who I find interesting to talk to and who make me happy to see them. But I don't feel a strong need to see each of them everyday and they don't give me the same sense of calm when I see them as a certain person. And then I think brain chemistry. And then I think Kesha, Your Love is my Drug. And how long does it have to take to feel like when you first met this person and they were nice and you enjoyed hanging out with them in the same way you enjoy hanging out with any other friend. Then I think of that song The First Cut is the Deepest. It could have a point. The first time you have never gotten over someone before so you feel like it'll never happen. Okay, so these past couple months were less intense than my first relationship. But still, now I know from experience that with time feelings change and you spend time with other people and they also give you joy and it's good. I just ask how long will it take and can I make it happen faster? I would like it if my conscious thought could control the other parts of my brain.
Oh, and I still think I have not seen the sun since I got back to England. That is seven days now. They are calling for sunny intervals today. We'll see. Also, they are calling for a high of 10 and rain on Friday.