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I went to the company Christmas party this weekend. It was done differently than usual. Only the employees that had been with the company for a while were invited. The other new employees 3 months and under are invited to a different Christmas party with everyone. I drank way too much, but had a really good time. Got a nice big bonus check, went and saw Zoo Lights at the Phoenix Zoo, had a marvelous Christmas dinner. Went and finished up my Christmas shopping, had Chinese for lunch, and drove home in the snow. Woke up to more snow and it just keeps coming down. Perhaps the winters will go back to how they use to be when I was a kid. We finally have permafrost again, a good 6" worth, which isn't much but I haven't seen it in over 15 years so I'm happy. Winter and I have a love/hate relationship. I love the beauty of it, the cold and newness, but hate the depression/loneliness that I feel with it. I also don't particularly enjoy driving in snow, it takes too much energy.
Of course during the course of the conversation we discussed sending out kids to college because the one employees daughter will be attending in a few years and we had the kids there at the party. Later there was a discussion about what you really learned in college. I somehow managed to avoid answering the question, but in reality the only thing I truly learned was that I was correct in thinking I was alone in the world. I mean people can always sympathize with you, empathize, have an idea of how you feel, but only you feel and think what you feel and think. You pain, happiness, loneliness and crises can only truly be experienced by you. High school was hard, but college was harder because everything just sunk in a tad deeper, a touch closer to home. I tend to dream a lot more now, dream of happiness I'll never see, of course if my dreams came true I still doubt I'd be happy, but it makes the days pass by easier and is about the only thing that causes me to sleep at night.
Of course during the course of the conversation we discussed sending out kids to college because the one employees daughter will be attending in a few years and we had the kids there at the party. Later there was a discussion about what you really learned in college. I somehow managed to avoid answering the question, but in reality the only thing I truly learned was that I was correct in thinking I was alone in the world. I mean people can always sympathize with you, empathize, have an idea of how you feel, but only you feel and think what you feel and think. You pain, happiness, loneliness and crises can only truly be experienced by you. High school was hard, but college was harder because everything just sunk in a tad deeper, a touch closer to home. I tend to dream a lot more now, dream of happiness I'll never see, of course if my dreams came true I still doubt I'd be happy, but it makes the days pass by easier and is about the only thing that causes me to sleep at night.