stresssssssssss
UGHHHHHHHHHHHH never fucking good enough. My brother is pissed, Cody tells me that I don’t try hard enough to find someone to date. I am like wtf!?!!?!?!? First of all no one is looking that I could date, second of all I won’t take any one who is thrown at me. My friends get bf left and right and people are bouncing with happiness and I am like wtf, why can’ I be happy. I go anywhere I can just for the chance to meet new people. Did no one notice that they usually fall for my best friends!?!?? Fuckin tired of feeling like I need someone else to make me happy, people act like I can’t be truly happy unless I have someone. I am something special, I know it. AS much as I degrade myself I know I could be worth it for a guy. You find a guy who could care about me, me alone and live near me and bother to et to know me and I would prolly fall for him!! It doesn’t take much but I can’t force myself to love someone. You can’t help who you love, only what you do about it. I am getting over Cody more and more as he tells me that I don’t try enough.
I am good enough for people, but no one bothers to even try and get to know me. I fucking hate how Cody knows me more then half my friends. I hate how Kyle loves me after years and yet I am just annoyed by his attempts to get me. I am tired of only being someone to talk to. I love helping people, I love to feel needed and I want to help my friends especially but I am not fun to them. Just a fucking drag. I have cried so much today just fuck it all. Show me one guy I could see a lot and would think about me all the time and who would be dedicated to only one girl (me). Show me one guy who could comfort me and have fun with me, and who could understand me and love the way I am. To be satisfied with the way I look and act… just one that wouldn’t get obsessed or is just girl crazy.
Tell me that you love me and you know I would probably hold back if I really did love you back. But sometimes you just can’t help who you like. I am right here but I am not the perfect girl for everyone. Gimme a chance and I may just end up mad for you. It’s sooo hard to go from not talking; just that foolish girl to wishing people would hug you. I fuckin wish I was good enough to be given a chance.
I am good enough for people, but no one bothers to even try and get to know me. I fucking hate how Cody knows me more then half my friends. I hate how Kyle loves me after years and yet I am just annoyed by his attempts to get me. I am tired of only being someone to talk to. I love helping people, I love to feel needed and I want to help my friends especially but I am not fun to them. Just a fucking drag. I have cried so much today just fuck it all. Show me one guy I could see a lot and would think about me all the time and who would be dedicated to only one girl (me). Show me one guy who could comfort me and have fun with me, and who could understand me and love the way I am. To be satisfied with the way I look and act… just one that wouldn’t get obsessed or is just girl crazy.
Tell me that you love me and you know I would probably hold back if I really did love you back. But sometimes you just can’t help who you like. I am right here but I am not the perfect girl for everyone. Gimme a chance and I may just end up mad for you. It’s sooo hard to go from not talking; just that foolish girl to wishing people would hug you. I fuckin wish I was good enough to be given a chance.