tangled - note to self
so.... i am dating my student's father....
he isn't so much my student as he is a kid who i work with 1 on 1 in his dorm when i work OT...
his father is 15 older than me....
his father is about to sign divorce papers within a month.... which means... he isn't technically divorced yet... just separated for two years.... but that is still married.
i am uncomfortable with his age when i think about bringing him home to family and inviting him out with friends....
but when it is just he and i, i don't even see his age... in some ways, he is younger than me!!
(i am not nearly as social as often... other lethargic... etc....)
i don't want to stop seeing him.... it is only the beginning and who is to say it'll turn into anything serious....
but should it... well, then wouldn't be the best time to try to end it sooooo.... perhaps i should make sure i truly am ok with this... that i won't hide him from fam and friends (that i can trust won't rat me out at work).... he deserves better and so do i.
my life with my broken brain is already hard enough!!! no need to add shit to it (my specialty)
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june 20, 2010
he isn't so much my student as he is a kid who i work with 1 on 1 in his dorm when i work OT...
his father is 15 older than me....
his father is about to sign divorce papers within a month.... which means... he isn't technically divorced yet... just separated for two years.... but that is still married.
i am uncomfortable with his age when i think about bringing him home to family and inviting him out with friends....
but when it is just he and i, i don't even see his age... in some ways, he is younger than me!!
(i am not nearly as social as often... other lethargic... etc....)
i don't want to stop seeing him.... it is only the beginning and who is to say it'll turn into anything serious....
but should it... well, then wouldn't be the best time to try to end it sooooo.... perhaps i should make sure i truly am ok with this... that i won't hide him from fam and friends (that i can trust won't rat me out at work).... he deserves better and so do i.
my life with my broken brain is already hard enough!!! no need to add shit to it (my specialty)
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june 20, 2010