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 Caroline Knapp : Drinking: A Love Story:
The deeper connections between alcohol and self-worth and sexuality, the way women (at least women like me) use alcohol to deaden a wide range of conflicted feelings - longing for intimacy and terror of it; a wish to merge with others and a fear of being consumed; profound uncertainty about how and when to ( Read more... )

Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can...
dont be afraid of it,
or what other people think of it,
its the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Women aren’t happily pear shaped or curvy or petite anymore. We aren’t aware of our “set point”-the weight range which your body automatically adjusts your metabolism to stay within. We conflate thinness with happiness, success, power, when really it is just a number on a scale. It is your emotions about those numbers, not the numbers themselves, ( Read more... )

How badly do you want it?

WEIGHT 161

Breakfast:

• breakfast burritto: 280
  
• egg: 70
• tortilla: 150
• sour cream: 30
• salsa: 10

"I had bulimia for a number of years. And that's like a secret disease. You inflict it upon yourself because your self-esteem is at a low ebb, and you don't think you're worthy or valuable. You fill your stomach up four or five times a day - some do it more - and it gives you a feeling of comfort. It's like having a pair of arms around you, but it' ( Read more... )

Breakfast/lunch:

• tuna: 200
• wheat crackers: 120
• tea

Snack:

• cheese: 70
• jelly beans: 120 <-- BAD (but its easter...)

I stopped counting yesterday when mom and my brother came today. maybe i won't count today either, i had a bagel with cheese and sausage and egg for breakfast with a big latte.

This week will be good. No more than 1500 cals a day (shouldn't be hard). plus exercise, work on school stuff, ect ect. Be a good girl. Pay the bills, do my laundry. Normal ( Read more... )

Breakfast:

• egg salad sandwich: 196
  
• espresso: 9