okay so saturday i woke up and was feeling really weak, like i had barely any strength to walk or to like hold my arms up so tht i could put my hair in a ponytail. so i decided to eat 4 strawberries, but tht didnt help so i was going to eat like a couple rice cakes but we didnt have any in our pantry..wtf?! so the lowest calorie thing we had was ( Read more... )

125..yuck

today ive had half a peice of gum which was 2.5 calories, 2 diet cokes with lime, and 2 bottles of water. and im still fat! ive also noticed that im getting bruises a lot easier than before. i have them like everywhere, like on my legs and arms and wrists- its weird. comment if any of you have this too.

xo SaraH!

okay so today i had 4 extremely big bites of chocolate cake but i worked it off by jogging for like a minute or 2 and then doing crunches and jumping jacks and i went to the mall for like 3 hours so i walked around a lot so i guess thts ok. My hands are looking bonier too. YAY! lol i love being able to see my bones. okay well this saturday is our ( Read more... )

today ive had 4 peices of trident gum and i chewed it from like 8 till like 3 45 so im pretty sure i burned off the 20 calories that were in it. and im home alone tonight which means that i dont have to eat dinner! YAY! lol anyways, tomorow i can get out of dinner too, and same with on friday. also ive decided that i want to be a model, even though ( Read more... )

wow im soo sorry tht i havnt updated in like forEvER! but i was doing really bad and ive noticed that whenever i binge alot i seem to not write in the journal so if you all notice that i havnt been writing then that usually means its cuz im eating my heart out. so anyways today has been good and so was yesterday, idk how much i weigh tho. k well i ( Read more... )

yesterday: alrighty so i went to school, and did rele good, i had like 5 peices of extra winterfresh gum. and for some reason, even though this was like my second day of fasting, i was having extremely blurred far-vision, and i seriously felt like i was going to faint. it was weird and i was kind of pissed off tht i was so weak when i was only on ( Read more... )

I FUCKING HATE BEING FAT! YUcK! monday i bingED agaiN! liek this past week has been by far tHE WORST! i like literally ate my heart out till the point of extremely bad stomache cramps! and i gained like 9-10 pounDS!its sick. im seriously like at the point where i want to take a knife and like cut off all the fat on my body. gross. and so last night ( Read more... )

okay sorry i havnt written in a while! im going to try and write more often starting monday. this whole week has been THE worst EvER! i dont even want to weigh myself. i look so gross, and in less than 3 weeks i have to be seen in a 2 peice bikini in front of all my friends including liek all my hott guy friends. i seriously need to start ( Read more... )

okay i just weighed myself and im 124.5 ugh i guess thats OkAy but i really wanted to be 115 by now. oh well, if i restrict more ill probly be there by next week. well yeah today i did good ate about 150 cals. k well i hope to be about 123.5 tomorow morning (i always lose about 1 pound during my sleep) and then 121 by tuesday morning. also my ( Read more... )

okay so this week has been really bad, i started all over again on thursday and today im like at 125ish. i dont rele want to discuss my binges bc there such a disapointment so yeahh. okay well i have to go to a volleyball game in a little bit, then im goin to a party tonite. ttyt! xoxo SaRaH SpeCk!