Feeling uncertain
I talked to my grandma today and told her about Joe calling me last Saturday and what he said...and the fact that he hasn't called since then. She said that she thinks Joe is a prick tease, but the other way around. She thinks he is just teasing me. I guess it makes sense. All of this is just games. Cara even said she thought Joe is just playing games with me. No one knows what to think about all of this mess. I gave Joe a chance, and he doesn't care to take it. I guess I should just move on. Jeff is a great guy, and I am still seeing him. Granted I am not seeing much of him, but he is so laid back and understanding and actually WANTS to see me and be with me and talk to me! Unlike Joe who apparenlty doesn't care to do any of those things. It just upsets me so damn much having to go through this! Why do I let myself get so wrapped up into things?!?!? After this week I've wondered whether or not God has intended for Joe and I to be together. My grandma made a comment that she thinks Joe would be hard to live with, and I think she is right. Jeff would be an easy person to live with, but the problem is that it took me over almost two years to finally feel that I was in love with Joe, and it will probably take even longer to feel that way for Jeff. It's not easy for me to feel like that for someone. It takes quite sometime for that to happen, and now Joe feels as though he can treat me however he pleases. That is such BULLSHIT! I am so damn sick and tired of playing along with his fucking mind games! I am DONE! Enough of this and enough of worrying and crying and feeling sorry for myseld. I have a great job and great friends and I have a great guy who is super into me. Who needs Joe??? I definitely don't need his fucking drama all the fucking time that is for damn sure! I think it is best to just look at the facts, and forget about him.