Feeling better about everything
I was at Andrea's today and was telling her everything that is happening with Joe. I told her I was afraid that maybe he was with someone else and that is why he is ignoring me. She thought that was highly doubtful and that he would probably still continue to talk to me not just ignore me. When I think about it, if he really was with someone else, he wouldn't want me to know, so he would keep talking to me. Not only that, it's not as if all of a sudden he found someone who was better looking, better at sex etc than me. Andrea thought that he wanted me to think that he was with someone else, which is what I think now too. I told him on the phone the last time he talked, that I hoped he wouldn't get with a bride's maid. He told me they were all ugly and wouldn't want to get with them anyway. Then I sent him my sexy texts later that night and even tried to call him. He never responded to anything. In the phone call I told him I was worried that he hadn't commented on my videos at all and that was really strange and that I guess if he was with someone else, then he was with someone else. Now I think he is doing this to make me think that is true. Possibly because he may feel that I am not trusting him, and so he is going to let me think the worst so I stop thinking that way. Then again he might be trying to piss me off and kind of push me away, and then all of a sudden show up at my door step on our 2 year anniversary. Joe usually has somewhat of a backwards way of doing things. I guess God was right...as always haha, and I should just leave Joe be. No more texts or calls or anyhting. And really what is the point? He hasn't responded to anything I have said. Nothing. No matter what I have texted. So I should just let it be and concentrate on work. I won't even bring my phone with me to work anymore because I need to focus on what needs to be done and get caught up to a point where I feel comfortable with everything. Most likely on November 12th, Joe will show up and proclaim I am The One as he puts it. I will let him play his game, the way he wants to play it. He has this big plan, and I should just let him figure it out on his own. It's only a week and a half away, and if after that time he still fails to show up, then maybe I will be able to move on. It will all end up the way God intends it to, and if I am not supposed to be with Joe, then so be it because I know there is someone truly great out there waiting for me, and I can't wait to find him!!!