I wish I hadn't broke up with him
He hasnt' shown up and it is almost 7. That means he must have chosen to go home or maybe things ran late and he doesn't have time to stop by. I don't know. He hasn't replied to any of my texts since Friday morning, and I am anxious. I pray the reason is because he left his phone at work and if that is the case I may not hear from him until Monday morning. I feel sick to my stomach, and I wish I could turn back time knowing what I feel now, and not break up with him for the second time. It hurts knowing how much I love him, and he does not feel the same. Why does this ALWAYS have to happen to me? Wasn't John enough?!?!?!? I already suffered through that breakup, and now I have to suffer through another heart ache with someone who I wanted and still want to marry. I miss him. I want to be with him, but I guess this isn't the right time, and maybe he isn't the right man....although I highly doubt that is the case. Who knows, maybe after my report is turned in and after Christmas things will be different. Neither of us have a lot of time to give these next couple months and so maybe this just isn't the right time, but I wish he would call me. It's in God's hands now.