Yes and no, up and down...
My flight is supposed to leave in the morning. And I get this message on my voicemail after John and I get back to the hotel that says shooting is cancelled altogether. How wonderful. The movie has caved in...this is the 2nd time this has happened to me but at least it happened PRE-production this time instead of POST. *grumbles* I suppose I should just get over it, but it really frustates me to want something so badly or work so hard for something that can just be pulled out from under you so easily. Another one bites the dust I suppose. Maybe I can talk Jive into letting me do a little tour of some sort...hop over to Japan or Aussie...
...or maybe I should just take some time OFF. From EVERYTHING. Just...put LoveSpell projects on hold and find something else to do. Maybe John will even want me to stick around or something...maybe...Maybe I'll just go to Ireland on my own and kiss the freakin' Blarney Stone and hang out with Billy and Quinn and Chris if they even remember that I exist. Who knows...I hate when things happen this way. So short notice. I am such a planner and it feels like things are turned so upside down now...I should have seen it coming. They did say they cut the budget and I should have suspected they might flop the whole thing. I'm so naive.
Well some news did come today, unfortunately not good. It seems the filming of "Whiter Shade of Pale" has been halted. "Friday 1st August 2003: Whiter Shade of Pale Update: EXCLUSIVE: It has been revealed that Jennifer Love Hewiit's next movie Whiter Shade of Pale has collapsed. Jennifer Love Hewitt was only added to the cast of the project late last week to star alongside Kip Pardue. The movie was supposed to film in Ireland in the next few months, but the crew who were supposed to have been hired for the project have been advised this week that the production has collapsed and will not proceed. No reason is known why the movie will no longer proceed, at a guess would it be financing problems, the usual problem for indie productions?http://www.thezreview.co.uk/news.shtm
On the other side of my life...the personal side...things have taken shape. I feel like I've wanted him so long and now that he's...'mine' I don't know what to do with myself. I know how he hates when I get cheesy or public about things. I just...I just really want him to know how much he means to me. How I've always wanted to be with him, never really gave up on him. How things were always alright between us, even though we're both scared and even though he's had to walk away...I've always understood and I've always respected him for taking anytime he's needed. It's ridiculous how much fate has played into this and he and I were joking around about it earlier but it's TRUE. I would take you through it step by step but I don't want to bore you and the past doesn't matter anymore. It's all about the future and just enjoying each other here and now.
Goodnight all, let's see what tomorrow can bring me.
Yo D-Dogg. I'm still yo LaTrina fah life.
Edit:: Zac is probably one of my greatest friends ever. Cuz uh...when I was feeling down, he came to my rescue and brought me a rose and a teddybear and got me away from all the madness for a night. Whoever would fly halfway across the country to do that wins. So...he wins. <3
...or maybe I should just take some time OFF. From EVERYTHING. Just...put LoveSpell projects on hold and find something else to do. Maybe John will even want me to stick around or something...maybe...Maybe I'll just go to Ireland on my own and kiss the freakin' Blarney Stone and hang out with Billy and Quinn and Chris if they even remember that I exist. Who knows...I hate when things happen this way. So short notice. I am such a planner and it feels like things are turned so upside down now...I should have seen it coming. They did say they cut the budget and I should have suspected they might flop the whole thing. I'm so naive.
Well some news did come today, unfortunately not good. It seems the filming of "Whiter Shade of Pale" has been halted. "Friday 1st August 2003: Whiter Shade of Pale Update: EXCLUSIVE: It has been revealed that Jennifer Love Hewiit's next movie Whiter Shade of Pale has collapsed. Jennifer Love Hewitt was only added to the cast of the project late last week to star alongside Kip Pardue. The movie was supposed to film in Ireland in the next few months, but the crew who were supposed to have been hired for the project have been advised this week that the production has collapsed and will not proceed. No reason is known why the movie will no longer proceed, at a guess would it be financing problems, the usual problem for indie productions?http://www.thezreview.co.uk/news.shtm
On the other side of my life...the personal side...things have taken shape. I feel like I've wanted him so long and now that he's...'mine' I don't know what to do with myself. I know how he hates when I get cheesy or public about things. I just...I just really want him to know how much he means to me. How I've always wanted to be with him, never really gave up on him. How things were always alright between us, even though we're both scared and even though he's had to walk away...I've always understood and I've always respected him for taking anytime he's needed. It's ridiculous how much fate has played into this and he and I were joking around about it earlier but it's TRUE. I would take you through it step by step but I don't want to bore you and the past doesn't matter anymore. It's all about the future and just enjoying each other here and now.
Goodnight all, let's see what tomorrow can bring me.
Yo D-Dogg. I'm still yo LaTrina fah life.
Edit:: Zac is probably one of my greatest friends ever. Cuz uh...when I was feeling down, he came to my rescue and brought me a rose and a teddybear and got me away from all the madness for a night. Whoever would fly halfway across the country to do that wins. So...he wins. <3