I don't want to hear about why I'm okay
I can be okay on my own.
I dont need your pity
I don't need your petty words
I don't need you
or anyone else.
I'm fine.
so
load me up
leave me be
i can control everything
and nothing at the same time
strap on a blissful demeanor
strap on a novel of assurance
blissful ignorance
you leave me be

cut like a knife deep into my side
suck out my inner self
loss of all control

diary of intakes
overexerted
looser fit
gain all control

cut out who cares
cut out all who ponder
I'm fine

I'm just fine.

I once had a professor tell me that from the time you start college and the time you finish, you inadvertently become a different person ( Read more... )

I got married yesterday to the most wonderful person in the world :) Everything was perfect, like a wonderful dream, I couldn't have asked for better weather, friends, family, food, atmosphere...everything...we leave Friday for our Honeymoon (courtesy of my aunt and uncle)...

I am officially Laura Beth Holt!

15 days and counting.... :) we got our apartment we are going to live in after the wedding, and 2 baby kittens!!!

We're getting married in 47 days!!!!!!! ahhhh we are so excited ( Read more... )

So I started nursing school at OU...7 classes and at least 1 exam every week later...I am surviving. When I decided to be a nurse it was more like "well what else am I supposed to do that will guarantee me a job when I graduate?" It was never "I have always wanted to be a nurse." But its truly amazing how God works in our lives...this is truly one ( Read more... )

Bryan and I leave for North Carolina in a few weeks!!! I can't wait!

a week of layin out on the beach with the guy I love...for free!

heck yeah...this summer has already started out amazing :) :) :)

Bryan and I went up north for my friend Kristin's (roommate from the dorms at WMU) wedding this weekend...it was very, very nice she looked gorgeous and the entire day was perfect for her...its so weird to think that the girl that I spent hours talking to in the dorms and going to parties with is married....gosh we are so grown up. She had a lot ( Read more... )

truly, madly, deeply :)

never been better than this