And for once I can honestly say I have found and felt it again. it was worth the pain and wait.

happy fucking birthday to u in 1 1/2 hours. hope u have a real shitty day cause uve made so many of my days shitty. FUCK YOU! fuck you for all the tears ive cried. fuck you for all the pain ive felt. and fuck you for making me feel not good enough ( Read more... )

So lately ive been daydreaming alot. I dont know what my deal is but this one person is just running through my mind constantly. and its not someone u would think id be thinking of. and its not depressing either. its a bit frustrating but thats just cause i shouldnt be thinking abut him cause he's off limits. no he's not a friend's boyfriend or ( Read more... )

Ever listen to a good song that just drags u in? u just sit there listenin to the strum of the strings and the words and towards the end u realize that uve been sittin there in a blank stare, daydreaming through the whole song. the song just pulled u into urself. I love music. I love how i can make a mixed CD that will express exactly how I feel. I ( Read more... )

I just read back to Jan '07. hahaha I crack myself up. But i totally get me. Ive hardly changed sinc then. its tru u cant change a person. its hard. there are things ive wanted to change about myself that I dont think I have. but there are other things I have changed abut myself. anyways back to making a mixed CD for a friend, a big pain in my ass ( Read more... )

...im burning like a bridge for ur body ( Read more... )

-- It's hard for you to let go of a negative feeling, but it can be a clean break from the past once you finally do. Today, as the Sun enters progressive Aquarius, you have a rare opportunity to see what's been holding you back. Don't be afraid to take a quantum leap into your future, even if it still takes a few more days for the shift to ripple ( Read more... )

1. I have started secretly taking shit that are mine out of the cabinets in the apt and packing them away. soon i will bring stuff back to my parents. long story but he deserves it ( Read more... )

where to begin? this morning i went to my cousin Albert's finance Julie's bridal shower. Albert's best friend Richard's finace was there too. Im sitting there in the back corner where we sat, watching Julie open her presents. and i realized that im the only one from the french kindergarten group that is not getting married/married and has a house. ( Read more... )

thank god for firemen. yum