(no subject)
Thanks everyone, for your support! It warms my heart to know that there's people out there thinking of me, and knowing what I'm going through.
Today was so weird. Going to work and speaking to customers and chatting with collegues... I did it all and I can't remember much of it, partly because I was on autopilot, and partly because I was on drugs.
Yesterday's food:
2 liters tea
1 glass orange juice
1 vitamin pill
2 wheat biscuits
2 mini mars bars
6 pills valium
The only things in this list that I had after noon (and after THE news) was the tea and the valium. I was seriously considering the bottle of rum I have left over from last Christmas, too, but I decided against it as I haven't had any alcohol since I was 19, and all I'd eaten that afternoon was valium. Not a good plan.
Tomorrow's another day, I suppose. Rather than sitting at home being depressed, I'm going with a friend to a Celtic and Fantasy fair in Enkhuizen, a little ways from here. It might get my mind off things to do some therapeutic shopping.
Today was so weird. Going to work and speaking to customers and chatting with collegues... I did it all and I can't remember much of it, partly because I was on autopilot, and partly because I was on drugs.
Yesterday's food:
2 liters tea
1 glass orange juice
1 vitamin pill
2 wheat biscuits
2 mini mars bars
6 pills valium
The only things in this list that I had after noon (and after THE news) was the tea and the valium. I was seriously considering the bottle of rum I have left over from last Christmas, too, but I decided against it as I haven't had any alcohol since I was 19, and all I'd eaten that afternoon was valium. Not a good plan.
Tomorrow's another day, I suppose. Rather than sitting at home being depressed, I'm going with a friend to a Celtic and Fantasy fair in Enkhuizen, a little ways from here. It might get my mind off things to do some therapeutic shopping.