Me n' Lucky
Ok Gilroy was Amazingly fun. I had a blast. I love visiting family. Lets see here....I saw Where the Wild Things Are twice. (Eventhough it wasn't that good) I got a new phone...that hasn't arrived yet..not that it would do me any good since I left my other phone in Rikki Joe's purse. I played clue and cooked dinner.
Unfortunately there was a downer because I attended a funeral as well. I tried not to let myself cry even though he was by far my favorite over the six. But On Friday night Lucky the Cat got hit by a car. It was very sad. They had him in a box and they were digging the hole for him in the backyard. I was trying not to cry because I knew that it would make my cousins cry even more. Then they opened the box and he was wrapped in a blanket so know one would see his little body. But the blanket got caught as they were pulling him at out the bo and his little dead head flopped out and thats when I lost it.
At that moment in time. I felt like I would never be happy again. I thought that I would feel like I a piece of me had died forever. And he was just a cat that wasn't even mine ( though I felt like he was a part of my family). I used to think that I wouldn't cry when my family died. I will think of it as a joyous occasion, because they will be in Heaven. I still think that. I hate crying and it makes me angry when I let others see me cry. But With Lucky it is different for two reasons.
1. His little dead head flopped out of the blanket...it was extremely sad :-(
2. I'm not sure Cats will be in Heaven. So its not a joyous occasion yet.
So I allowed myself to cry this once. But Never again will I slip up lol, Nah, thats a joke.