A Bit Worried ..
Ever since around my 10th grade year til now,i've been feeling somewhat sick.
I'm not quite sure what it is,but its bothering me.
My breathing problems have gotten worse. It's come to a point where i just stop breathing,and have anxiety attacks.
It's so uncomfortable that its scaring me.
Plus im always extremely tired and my body would start feeling heavy.
I don't know what it is,but i think its a mixture of not eating much or at all.
Not enough rest.
Stress.
Its too much,but i think i'll get through.
Hopefully this week is going to be a good one.
Cause i had a decent weekend.
I picked up Michael;ditched rehearsals and went to Aly's halloween party.
Which was pretty cool cause i bumped into my best friend from middle school;D'Andra.
Mind you that girl was extremely attracted to me and had a crush on me,hell she even asked me out !
It was weird cause the last time i saw her was on her b-day at Galaxy Skateway.
Which was the most awkward moment of my life,since she made a shitload of new friends,ect.
But now i think it'll be diffrent.
I'm getting rid of people i thought were friends and bringing back my old childhood friends.
Along with some new people,which i think are fucking amazing.
&& I'm not letting people with drama bring me down.
Cause literally i don't take shit from anybody and people under estimate me sometimes.
That reminds me,effin Janessa dude.
Shit i almost completely forgot about it it was bothering me my whole weekend and ontop of that people
kept mentioning her name.
She leaves me a text 5 something in the morning about how i need to stop talking shit about her boyfriend
or some shit. Okay im just wondering "wtf mate?" cause i was completely confused.
Then i sign onto myspace with a message from her.
Alright maybe she can explain what the fuck she was talking about instead i get a lovely message with
shut the fuck up in big bold letters.
Mmkay,so i still don't know why she got pissed.
Then i call my boyfriend,and he told me what happend.
I wanted to laugh so badly,cause the entries are old as fuck; two months ago ?
Yeah .. old. That's when i was pissed off because i kept hearing shit i didn't want to deal with.
I haven't mentioned the girls name til when Chris invited her into Cami's chat.
Which was weird cause i wasn't expecting that.
What pissed me off is not that she read it;good i don't care.
The thing that pissed me off is that she was quick to come tell me shut the fuck up and all this crap.
As Shaun said "When did she become hard?"
Lord i have no idea,lol. But it cracked me up cause she's too jumpy.
If she didn't care of my opinion on Andy she would have been calm and just let it brush off her shoulder.
But instead she jumped up and flipped out on me,poor me,who was just trying to get by without
getting stuck in the hospital because of my health.
I was close to becoming her friend again,shit i even missed the girl at one point.
But people change,and we can't help that.
That's why my life is at a better place.
&& im not putting my shit on private cause,hey ! its livejournal !
=]
I'm not quite sure what it is,but its bothering me.
My breathing problems have gotten worse. It's come to a point where i just stop breathing,and have anxiety attacks.
It's so uncomfortable that its scaring me.
Plus im always extremely tired and my body would start feeling heavy.
I don't know what it is,but i think its a mixture of not eating much or at all.
Not enough rest.
Stress.
Its too much,but i think i'll get through.
Hopefully this week is going to be a good one.
Cause i had a decent weekend.
I picked up Michael;ditched rehearsals and went to Aly's halloween party.
Which was pretty cool cause i bumped into my best friend from middle school;D'Andra.
Mind you that girl was extremely attracted to me and had a crush on me,hell she even asked me out !
It was weird cause the last time i saw her was on her b-day at Galaxy Skateway.
Which was the most awkward moment of my life,since she made a shitload of new friends,ect.
But now i think it'll be diffrent.
I'm getting rid of people i thought were friends and bringing back my old childhood friends.
Along with some new people,which i think are fucking amazing.
&& I'm not letting people with drama bring me down.
Cause literally i don't take shit from anybody and people under estimate me sometimes.
That reminds me,effin Janessa dude.
Shit i almost completely forgot about it it was bothering me my whole weekend and ontop of that people
kept mentioning her name.
She leaves me a text 5 something in the morning about how i need to stop talking shit about her boyfriend
or some shit. Okay im just wondering "wtf mate?" cause i was completely confused.
Then i sign onto myspace with a message from her.
Alright maybe she can explain what the fuck she was talking about instead i get a lovely message with
shut the fuck up in big bold letters.
Mmkay,so i still don't know why she got pissed.
Then i call my boyfriend,and he told me what happend.
I wanted to laugh so badly,cause the entries are old as fuck; two months ago ?
Yeah .. old. That's when i was pissed off because i kept hearing shit i didn't want to deal with.
I haven't mentioned the girls name til when Chris invited her into Cami's chat.
Which was weird cause i wasn't expecting that.
What pissed me off is not that she read it;good i don't care.
The thing that pissed me off is that she was quick to come tell me shut the fuck up and all this crap.
As Shaun said "When did she become hard?"
Lord i have no idea,lol. But it cracked me up cause she's too jumpy.
If she didn't care of my opinion on Andy she would have been calm and just let it brush off her shoulder.
But instead she jumped up and flipped out on me,poor me,who was just trying to get by without
getting stuck in the hospital because of my health.
I was close to becoming her friend again,shit i even missed the girl at one point.
But people change,and we can't help that.
That's why my life is at a better place.
&& im not putting my shit on private cause,hey ! its livejournal !
=]