first of all fuck u.. you dont know what i talk to her about and you dont know what we've gone through. Do you think i like seeing the person i love have her knees buckle or do you think i like seeing her be hungry and deny an essential act of what it takes to live.. and I have had an eating disorder .. I MYSELF was belemic for about 8and a half ( Read more... )

Sigh.. depression.. sigh.. Work is really wearing on me. I never get to see Jacqui and i really fear that she will start drifting away from me. I know she says she wont and stuff like that but i cant help but think she will. I just have this feeling like shes gonna get tired of not seeing me or somthing and just leave me. I know that seems to be ( Read more... )

So yeah. Jacqui's in SA and im all here in my house alone.. Now i am reminded of that craptasticness of not seeing her ALL DAY. It really blows because like we are both so attached to eachother that it like effects our days when we dont see eachother. Like we sleep and take non stop naps when the other isnt around because then we're that much ( Read more... )

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles ( Read more... )

Ok last night was the shit for many reasons. One We got to spend the ENTIRE night with Joyce! YEssssssss! Two she finally has had enough of cory's BS. AND OMG HOW COULD I FORGET.... WE MADE A NICKNAME FOR JOYCE and its soooo flippin sweet. Get this her nick name is FFFFFFFFFFRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWW. Like from austin powers.. because when ( Read more... )

OMG OMG OMG.. SO i now have the best plans for my bday! I PRAY TO GOD that they work out! Today was amazing! I got a job at the town club and ill be making 5.45/h + a bi weekly paycheck of roughly 150-200$ EXTRA for tips. THEN i got to see jacqui which was also EFFIN amazing. She seemed to be in the best mood in the world when she saw me today and ( Read more... )

im going crazy.. i just feel as if the world around me is falling apart..

What i quit 6 months ago is back.. I though i got rid of it but i guess it will allways haunt me. Only one person knows what im talking about and only one person will ever know. I hate myself ........ Jacqui is the only thing that gives me a reason to believe that i can do good in life and that im not a waist of time and space.. shes the only one ( Read more... )

OK so I have been sitting here doing jack shit today and finally decided to make the post! I LOVE JACQUI! HOLY SHIT, I LOVE JACQUI! She is sooo amazing. She has to be the only person who would truely care if i were here or not. For example I almost went to jail because i couldnt finish my court shit unless i had my school ID so that i could get a ( Read more... )