....... This is REALLY getting old.......
Sigh.. depression.. sigh.. Work is really wearing on me. I never get to see Jacqui and i really fear that she will start drifting away from me. I know she says she wont and stuff like that but i cant help but think she will. I just have this feeling like shes gonna get tired of not seeing me or somthing and just leave me. I know that seems to be totally out of character for her but when i think about it its like... What would she rather want more? Someone like me who she never gets to see or someone she gets to see all the time. I just hope she knows how much i love her and the only reason im even working is because i want to be able to pay rent and live closer to her so that i can see her more. well.. i have to go to work now (aka hell) ill be back later..