Jun 18, 2012 08:38
I hate the dating scene. Feel so awkward in it
Had been seeing a girl since katie moved out. Really liked her but scared to death about commiting. So basically seeing her every weekend and couple days a week since mid april or so. Seem to have the same intrests etc. She went to vegas and texted me while there, told me not to let it go to my head but she missed me. I went to vegas week after and really couldnt think of anyone but her. Come back and everything was different. Not sure what changed but I had told myself that give it a week after im back and I'll talk to her about if we are official or whatever.
Well this friday everything went sideways. Text her and she wont answer. Ask if she wanted to go to the fremont fair, no answer. Ask her if she wanted to do anything that night, no answer. Well the way she has been acting since I got back I figured fuck it, im out. She texts me back that night around 10 saying she was out with friends and would txt me later. Bullshit
Since I got back and it has been weird I jumped back on okcupid and noticed her profile was back up and that night after I had texted her it said she was actually online at the moment. So ya you might have been out with friends but you purposly ignored my text. Oh and she didnt txt back later that night anyway. So ya i said fuck it and cut ties and losses.
Well 15 mins ago she txts me and the second i felt the buzz in my pocket i had a feeling it would be her and her asking why i defriended her on fb. she just said sorry about being out of communication she had lost her phone and gotten her friends bla bla bla. asked how my weekend was
Debating on texting her back at all. If i do it will be one word "good". or just ignoring her completly. I am not in the mood for drama and part of me wonders if i bring this on myself. I dont want to get into some fight with her because she wasnt being distant just being whatever and i took it the wrong way. Really the way i see it i want the least amount of drama as possible. I see it as she lost intrest so i bailed. That is all.
I dont know what to do really. I know the best would be just to talk to her about it but we aren't even dating and i dont want some giant talk/fight before we would even start dating. it just seems the safe way i just ignore her and let it die out.
Funny thing, I was seeing another girl while seeing cynthia and i ditched that girl for cynthia. course friday i texted her and was like "HEY, sorry i havent texted you in awhile. whats up"
wow that was awkward convo. could tell she wasnt a fan but did at least texted me back.
I hate the dating scene. Why cant it just be easy."hey you like me and i like you and we seem to get along well. lets date". I really want as little drama as possible. egh