dream feat. Clementine
well, back here to tell you about another series of dreams i had this am. pretty standard intensity-wise but they finished rather strangely, rather peculiarly...
i believe it began rather frantically during a family gathering of sorts, it was in the evening and it felt like we were all gathered at a cabin of sorts, perhaps somewhere in oregon, either by sunriver or by DRW. this part isn't important though, the only take away from this, is that i was heading off to house sit for my mom (maybe she still lived in the current house, but i cannot be certain).
it must have been the next day because i remember getting loaded into the car (perhaps brief goodbyes?) and then driving around off onto the highway. the route i was on was familiar and i even had somewhere i was planning on stopping midway through my journey. the town i chose to pause in was large enough. two main thoroughfares going opposite one-way directions, but then it expanded out further in a grid pattern going in multiple different directions, traffic lights included. it had the feel of an older town, brick facades and the like, half old western town/half old logging town. the spot i was concerned with was smack dab in the middle of the town. i remember i had to circle around a few times before i found a spot and once there i made my way inside but it wasn't through the front entrance, i had entered from the opposite side. it was a restaurant/bar attached to an adjacent boutique hotel. as i entered i noticed a menu (maybe it was a draft list?) hanging from the ceiling. as i made my way to order i noticed a huge group of people close to my age. as i got my beer and sat to wait for food i noticed they were discussing drum and bass. i quickly made myself acquainted with them and inserted myself into the conversation. there was a friend among them who happened to be a dj of some high regard. for whatever reason, i never mentioned my being a dj of sorts (and i can't remember what his dj name was unfortunately (could have looked him up)). anyway, eventually i was explaining to them that i was on my way to house sit or visit my mom or whatever and reluctantly i had to pull myself away. i walked out the front entrance of the hotel only to realize that i had parked on the opposite side of the building. rather than return to the bar and walk through the throng of people again i took the long way round and went to find my car. for reasons that escape me, i found myself again engaged in conversation and sucked back into the hotel only to reemerge out of the main entrance again and once again silently cursing myself for having been distracted from my main goal. i again walked around the long way and this time, found my car. as i hopped in, backed out and began driving down the street i realized i'd left something important there at the bar. wtf? so this time, as the sunlight was dwindling i circled back through the small town, waited at several traffic lights and parked in the same place as before. hurrying back in and quickly back out the front entrance (not again!) i made my down the street to the left (same as before) but this time caught sight of something, someone dashing across the crosswalk down towards where my car was parked. as i neared, the exact same person, wearing a different outfit (this time a dress) was running down the sidewalk in the general direction as my car and as she did so, flashed us briefly a view of her sweet ass and black and white with daisies print undies! it was izz! as i called and ran after her, a vendor on the street corner shot me a knowing look (like, of course you're chasing after her, i would be too). glancing down the way, i could see both versions of her just up ahead, both chasing a little girl. they all stopped at a different vendor (apparently waiting in line to buy a treat of sorts) and as my pace slowed, the girl made eye contact with me and smiled. she was beautiful and probably no more than 8 or 9. as i approached the second version of izz (the one wearing the dress) she turned to meet me, "don't worry, it's just our daughter..." and i knew it was clementine. without making eye contact with izz, my gaze fixated on clementine, "i know..." and finally i looked to izz, and she said "but this isn't your reality, this isn't meant for you..." and i stood there, in the evening chill, hat folded in my hand, the lights reflecting off wet streets, watching as it all slowly disappeared around me...
i believe it began rather frantically during a family gathering of sorts, it was in the evening and it felt like we were all gathered at a cabin of sorts, perhaps somewhere in oregon, either by sunriver or by DRW. this part isn't important though, the only take away from this, is that i was heading off to house sit for my mom (maybe she still lived in the current house, but i cannot be certain).
it must have been the next day because i remember getting loaded into the car (perhaps brief goodbyes?) and then driving around off onto the highway. the route i was on was familiar and i even had somewhere i was planning on stopping midway through my journey. the town i chose to pause in was large enough. two main thoroughfares going opposite one-way directions, but then it expanded out further in a grid pattern going in multiple different directions, traffic lights included. it had the feel of an older town, brick facades and the like, half old western town/half old logging town. the spot i was concerned with was smack dab in the middle of the town. i remember i had to circle around a few times before i found a spot and once there i made my way inside but it wasn't through the front entrance, i had entered from the opposite side. it was a restaurant/bar attached to an adjacent boutique hotel. as i entered i noticed a menu (maybe it was a draft list?) hanging from the ceiling. as i made my way to order i noticed a huge group of people close to my age. as i got my beer and sat to wait for food i noticed they were discussing drum and bass. i quickly made myself acquainted with them and inserted myself into the conversation. there was a friend among them who happened to be a dj of some high regard. for whatever reason, i never mentioned my being a dj of sorts (and i can't remember what his dj name was unfortunately (could have looked him up)). anyway, eventually i was explaining to them that i was on my way to house sit or visit my mom or whatever and reluctantly i had to pull myself away. i walked out the front entrance of the hotel only to realize that i had parked on the opposite side of the building. rather than return to the bar and walk through the throng of people again i took the long way round and went to find my car. for reasons that escape me, i found myself again engaged in conversation and sucked back into the hotel only to reemerge out of the main entrance again and once again silently cursing myself for having been distracted from my main goal. i again walked around the long way and this time, found my car. as i hopped in, backed out and began driving down the street i realized i'd left something important there at the bar. wtf? so this time, as the sunlight was dwindling i circled back through the small town, waited at several traffic lights and parked in the same place as before. hurrying back in and quickly back out the front entrance (not again!) i made my down the street to the left (same as before) but this time caught sight of something, someone dashing across the crosswalk down towards where my car was parked. as i neared, the exact same person, wearing a different outfit (this time a dress) was running down the sidewalk in the general direction as my car and as she did so, flashed us briefly a view of her sweet ass and black and white with daisies print undies! it was izz! as i called and ran after her, a vendor on the street corner shot me a knowing look (like, of course you're chasing after her, i would be too). glancing down the way, i could see both versions of her just up ahead, both chasing a little girl. they all stopped at a different vendor (apparently waiting in line to buy a treat of sorts) and as my pace slowed, the girl made eye contact with me and smiled. she was beautiful and probably no more than 8 or 9. as i approached the second version of izz (the one wearing the dress) she turned to meet me, "don't worry, it's just our daughter..." and i knew it was clementine. without making eye contact with izz, my gaze fixated on clementine, "i know..." and finally i looked to izz, and she said "but this isn't your reality, this isn't meant for you..." and i stood there, in the evening chill, hat folded in my hand, the lights reflecting off wet streets, watching as it all slowly disappeared around me...