3 dreams (but really only 1) welcome to 2024....fuck
this is nearly my 20 year anniversary on this site! holy cow! obviously havent updated super regularly but still. 20 years of anything is pretty wild. I was just 18 when I posted my first entry! anyhow, without further adieu....my first post of 2024...
Well this last night, had some pretty vivid dreams (pretty standard of course) but what was different from the norm lately is that I am still able to remember them so well. I've been waking up with only the feeling of the dream still present or the hazy scenes, some settings, stuff like that. but this one was just there and i was in it and able to lay there afterwards, after i woke up and mull all of it over...
it must have been in 2022 or perhaps early 2023, because i was discussing how Izz and I were about to experience our 3rd wedding ceremony. The first being just us, while somehow izzes grandma and my grandma were both there for it too...the second being for izze's family and the 3rd and last being for my family. such a wild concept and situation. we were staying at a hotel that had previously been a gym and had been converted to a hotel/dive bar lounge. it was remodeled obviously but the bathrooms were nearly entirely communal and seemed to be the least of the rooms touched by the remodel. it had a very strange open style floor plan. while you're pissing you can see across the room to the stalls? idk, the wood was all dark too. there were showers too. this was a very strange part of the dream. the light was all weird dark/twilight like in a lot of my dreams. i had to clean the bathrooms? i remember having to get down and scrub the bottom of the urinals. I didn't like it. anyway, after this it came to a point where izz and i were just about to part ways until the ceremony. but first we had to load up kegs and send her on her way. we were in front of the hotel/bar, which was sitting on a very busy highway. like 2 or 3 lanes going one way. walking out of the hotel, there was an intersection to the left, the lights would change and traffic would back up pretty severely. i remember feeling impressed as i watched izz lift and carry full kegs to her subaru. we had 5 kegs in total, which seemed like a lot, but two of them were 1/4 bbls? idfk. as we finished loading in the 4th keg, we seemed to have issue with finding room for a 5th. somehow the last keg had made its way out into traffic and was now right in the middle of the busy highway. we kept checking on it, walking in between cars to make sure it wasn't getting too far away from us. eventually we just loaded up the car and decided it might be safer to try and load it up from the other side of the highway as the keg had made its way all the way to the other side. i hopped into the car and drove down the way to make a u-turn and come back (izz had to leave that way anyway). i assume we got it all taken care of and she was on her way. somehow at this point captain was with me (he was going to be in our wedding? goddamn, just can't shake that dude).
next scene is me saying so long to captain, agreeing to see each other tomorrow. he had made a hotel reservation at a different hotel than i did. and so i drove the opposite direction izz had. i was going to a hotel that i had stayed at years ago. for some reason i remember checking the time and it was 1111, but perhaps that was just 1111 am? i texted izz. and cruised to the hotel. when i parked and entered, it all became familiar. i was staying in room 138 again. it was on the second floor (top floor) way down to the far end of the hotel. it was so far away, it even had its own concierge and bar. it was however too early to check in. and so i agreed to meet a friend and help them out with class registration or buying books for the next quarter or something. anyway, i meet them there and we're briefly touring the campus and im telling them how strange it is to be back here. everything is different. they tore down the basketball hoops, everything seemed to be in a state of disarray and worn out, tired and old. classes were in and so the campus was deserted. we toured around a bit more and then went to the main office. as my friend waited in line for the office to open, i stood off to the side. I thought about how i hadnt even brought a razor to shave for tomorrow and made a mental note to go and buy one tonight. as i heard the bell ring? the call sound? students flooded in from everywhere. my friend had left to go to the bathroom in this time and i was left there somewhat awkwardly. students flooded into the line, someone asked if i'd been helped. i said i was just waiting for a friend. finally the friend came back and saw they'd been bumped in line. soon enough help was being dealt and the situation was rectified.
then i'm driving to meet izz at a bar. i thought tradition said no seeing each other the night before but idk. we were meeting at the bar a mutual friend owned. and were settling in for an evening of live music and drinks. I wish i could take you to the room/building as i saw it, it was quite lovely actually, somewhat remiscent of belmont station in portland, where one side is a pub/bar and the other is a bottle shop, except this place was more like jacksons corner in that on one side of the pub/restaurant was a wall completely composed of bottles and cans to-go or for consumption on premise (a wall of coolers). and to the right of that was a square bar, mind you the entire room was composed heavily of dark wood and accented in many places with dark blue. the ceilings were high, there were stately photos on the wall, with high tops and neat little lamps arranged to the outside of the room, at night i can imagine this place was quite a lovely place to have a beer. as i walked in there were friends already at the bar, izz was coming towards me telling me she had already bought me something special and the bartender presented me with a rather large bottle with a strange top. it was some sort of special non-alcoholic beer...as i tipped it back to drink i realized the top was really weird and hard to drink from, it was a strange square green plastic bottle (the topper was in the shape of a tower). i explained this and was presented with another beer (this one was definitely alcoholic). soon everyone was filing out of the room through a door in the corner towards the music that was spilling in from the other side of the building. for some reason i let everyone go and stayed back. just a moment before a group of friends had come through and ordered a round and were out back on the covered patio. as i was the only one left behind, i could see one of them was just about on his way to gather another round for all of them. i thought about whether or not i should ring in and pour another round or not, or whether or not i would know how to do it since I didn't actually work there. as he entered through the side door i was left standing there deciding whether or not i should do it myself or go and grab my owner friend.
and then it ends...
Well this last night, had some pretty vivid dreams (pretty standard of course) but what was different from the norm lately is that I am still able to remember them so well. I've been waking up with only the feeling of the dream still present or the hazy scenes, some settings, stuff like that. but this one was just there and i was in it and able to lay there afterwards, after i woke up and mull all of it over...
it must have been in 2022 or perhaps early 2023, because i was discussing how Izz and I were about to experience our 3rd wedding ceremony. The first being just us, while somehow izzes grandma and my grandma were both there for it too...the second being for izze's family and the 3rd and last being for my family. such a wild concept and situation. we were staying at a hotel that had previously been a gym and had been converted to a hotel/dive bar lounge. it was remodeled obviously but the bathrooms were nearly entirely communal and seemed to be the least of the rooms touched by the remodel. it had a very strange open style floor plan. while you're pissing you can see across the room to the stalls? idk, the wood was all dark too. there were showers too. this was a very strange part of the dream. the light was all weird dark/twilight like in a lot of my dreams. i had to clean the bathrooms? i remember having to get down and scrub the bottom of the urinals. I didn't like it. anyway, after this it came to a point where izz and i were just about to part ways until the ceremony. but first we had to load up kegs and send her on her way. we were in front of the hotel/bar, which was sitting on a very busy highway. like 2 or 3 lanes going one way. walking out of the hotel, there was an intersection to the left, the lights would change and traffic would back up pretty severely. i remember feeling impressed as i watched izz lift and carry full kegs to her subaru. we had 5 kegs in total, which seemed like a lot, but two of them were 1/4 bbls? idfk. as we finished loading in the 4th keg, we seemed to have issue with finding room for a 5th. somehow the last keg had made its way out into traffic and was now right in the middle of the busy highway. we kept checking on it, walking in between cars to make sure it wasn't getting too far away from us. eventually we just loaded up the car and decided it might be safer to try and load it up from the other side of the highway as the keg had made its way all the way to the other side. i hopped into the car and drove down the way to make a u-turn and come back (izz had to leave that way anyway). i assume we got it all taken care of and she was on her way. somehow at this point captain was with me (he was going to be in our wedding? goddamn, just can't shake that dude).
next scene is me saying so long to captain, agreeing to see each other tomorrow. he had made a hotel reservation at a different hotel than i did. and so i drove the opposite direction izz had. i was going to a hotel that i had stayed at years ago. for some reason i remember checking the time and it was 1111, but perhaps that was just 1111 am? i texted izz. and cruised to the hotel. when i parked and entered, it all became familiar. i was staying in room 138 again. it was on the second floor (top floor) way down to the far end of the hotel. it was so far away, it even had its own concierge and bar. it was however too early to check in. and so i agreed to meet a friend and help them out with class registration or buying books for the next quarter or something. anyway, i meet them there and we're briefly touring the campus and im telling them how strange it is to be back here. everything is different. they tore down the basketball hoops, everything seemed to be in a state of disarray and worn out, tired and old. classes were in and so the campus was deserted. we toured around a bit more and then went to the main office. as my friend waited in line for the office to open, i stood off to the side. I thought about how i hadnt even brought a razor to shave for tomorrow and made a mental note to go and buy one tonight. as i heard the bell ring? the call sound? students flooded in from everywhere. my friend had left to go to the bathroom in this time and i was left there somewhat awkwardly. students flooded into the line, someone asked if i'd been helped. i said i was just waiting for a friend. finally the friend came back and saw they'd been bumped in line. soon enough help was being dealt and the situation was rectified.
then i'm driving to meet izz at a bar. i thought tradition said no seeing each other the night before but idk. we were meeting at the bar a mutual friend owned. and were settling in for an evening of live music and drinks. I wish i could take you to the room/building as i saw it, it was quite lovely actually, somewhat remiscent of belmont station in portland, where one side is a pub/bar and the other is a bottle shop, except this place was more like jacksons corner in that on one side of the pub/restaurant was a wall completely composed of bottles and cans to-go or for consumption on premise (a wall of coolers). and to the right of that was a square bar, mind you the entire room was composed heavily of dark wood and accented in many places with dark blue. the ceilings were high, there were stately photos on the wall, with high tops and neat little lamps arranged to the outside of the room, at night i can imagine this place was quite a lovely place to have a beer. as i walked in there were friends already at the bar, izz was coming towards me telling me she had already bought me something special and the bartender presented me with a rather large bottle with a strange top. it was some sort of special non-alcoholic beer...as i tipped it back to drink i realized the top was really weird and hard to drink from, it was a strange square green plastic bottle (the topper was in the shape of a tower). i explained this and was presented with another beer (this one was definitely alcoholic). soon everyone was filing out of the room through a door in the corner towards the music that was spilling in from the other side of the building. for some reason i let everyone go and stayed back. just a moment before a group of friends had come through and ordered a round and were out back on the covered patio. as i was the only one left behind, i could see one of them was just about on his way to gather another round for all of them. i thought about whether or not i should ring in and pour another round or not, or whether or not i would know how to do it since I didn't actually work there. as he entered through the side door i was left standing there deciding whether or not i should do it myself or go and grab my owner friend.
and then it ends...