Forgotten.
There are those of you who may remember me. Some of you may not. But for those of who you remember, please do not think for a second you know who I am.
As most of you, I have changed.
Or adapted. To your change.
I trust not a single person. I have not told the truth for as long as I can remember having to lie.
I have forgotten some, lost more, and wished I didn't have even more of you.
I have not for a long time been afraid or longing over Him.
And now I find myself longing for another.
He's cute, restores my faith in people sort of. He makes me feel better, which is something I haven't even been able to do in some time.
However, I find myself in quite a situation. With Stephen.. I professed my love on the deepest level I thought I could, and still. Rejected. Leading to a more than half on half off awkward friendship. I spent so much time resenting him, and myself.. that I feel like it has more than ruined a wonderful friendship.
And with this new longing, this new attraction.. I've chosen to remain silent and I'm going to fall into the same predicament. I have trusted him without meaning to.. and begun to give him something I thought I'd never give anyone again.. now willingly anyway.
So.. this is why I can't trust you. I can't trust anyone. I have to keep lying.
Even if it's to myself.
As most of you, I have changed.
Or adapted. To your change.
I trust not a single person. I have not told the truth for as long as I can remember having to lie.
I have forgotten some, lost more, and wished I didn't have even more of you.
I have not for a long time been afraid or longing over Him.
And now I find myself longing for another.
He's cute, restores my faith in people sort of. He makes me feel better, which is something I haven't even been able to do in some time.
However, I find myself in quite a situation. With Stephen.. I professed my love on the deepest level I thought I could, and still. Rejected. Leading to a more than half on half off awkward friendship. I spent so much time resenting him, and myself.. that I feel like it has more than ruined a wonderful friendship.
And with this new longing, this new attraction.. I've chosen to remain silent and I'm going to fall into the same predicament. I have trusted him without meaning to.. and begun to give him something I thought I'd never give anyone again.. now willingly anyway.
So.. this is why I can't trust you. I can't trust anyone. I have to keep lying.
Even if it's to myself.