The story of geekness
So I just watched two first episodes of that new anime Watashi ga Motenai no wa Dou Kangaetemo Omaera ga Warui, in short WataMote. Seriously, that titles is terrible, I don't even undestand it well. Speaking of which my Japanese definitely plummeted down and I don't understand as much as I used to, let alone speaking or communicating in general.
Anyway, WataMote apparently tells a story of a geeky girl who's a total no-life and all she does is playing games and cannot communicate with people at all. She doesn't exactly stray from people, she just lacks communication skills. I always liked the stories of geeks like that. There's Konata from Lucky Star, then there's OreImo, and Genshiken (which continues airing this season as well, apparently, yay!), there's also Welcome to the NHK and possibly some more that I forgot and other that I don't know.
I like watching such things, cause in a way it's funny how much of myself I see in there. (Although, main character from WataMote reminds me of dhuaine much more, lol, mostly because of the 3DS featured in the first episode). Either way, my life's recently not much different from a geeky shut-in who never leaves. I'm spending all of my free time in front of the screen, be it games or internet. Then, there's communication issues. Ever since i got my xbox, it's been all games. I'm so monothematic it scares me. All I can do it talk about games lol. My social skills are not as bad as in WataMote, I'm fine talking with people, basically, but I'm far happier when I don't have to. Even as I was pushed to go to the shop today, I was thinking how good that I'll be going to Sweden again because the stores there are big enough that I don't have to say "hello" to the person at the checkout, and I totally refused to go to shops which make me request items from the clerk, lol. Well, I'm fine talking to people when there's a topic, but not when there's nothing, I hate those awkward conversations with strangers that sometimes happen. And then again, I'm so away from everything "normal" that it's really hard to talk lol. If eel best when I can talk games. I'm extatic when I can talk games. I just flooded a friend with a nearly 2-hours monologue about console gaming, new headset, Borderlands 2 and region locks. Then another topic might be anime and maybe movies, but I haven't watch some of the most mainstream ones, so it's not good topic sometimes lol. It's scary, really. Most of my friends are also geeky, so they can understand me to some extent. But all in all I'm pretty anti-social still, no matter what I decide from time to time I just fail to socialize, I either get scared of people or it just goes bad.
The difference though is that, unlike the anime in series such as WataMote, OreImo and Lucky Star, I'm in between of general character type. OreImo feaures that pretty and fashionable girl who's a geek, and other feature a somewhat typical no-life with no interest in looks or fashion whatsoever. And then there's bunch (really?) girls like me, who while being extreme geeks still give a lot of attention to looks. I haven't been shoping for a while, cause somehow I don't feel the need for more, all my clothes satisfy my current style. That being said I won't really leave home to meet people without putting on proper make up and changing 324235 times to make sure my clothes and shoes match. I like getting new things from fashionable stores, I love makeup, I love caring about my hair (not that I have to do anything lol, the way they are now I don't even have to comb because it looks terrible after combing). I also love body modification such as tattoos and piercings. Not that I have many, with one tattoo, one piercing and stretched ears recently to the size of 8mm (wanna get to 12mm, I guess). I put a lot of focus into details, well, maybe not that many, but I like accessories and such. I remember Leda saying something about gamer girls, how most of the world imagines us as either slutty and relying on being a girl (in case of online games) orbeing ugly and no-life, and then commenting how many she knows are hot, like regular other girls. I totally do not have an image of a gaming nerd, I guess, I hope so, lol. I care A LOT about my appearance. Also other gamer girls I know are like that, most at least. The only thing I could say is that they're plain, like... plain. But that's matter of style. I always was doing something to look different than others, in a way, basically just having my own style, which is connection between what I like and what's fashonable.
Having said that, no more Borderlands 2 for me today. I was playing all day since I got up until I eventually got a headache several hours later. I have one more episode of another summer season anime so I think I'm gonna watch it and go to sleep, since it's almost 2 AM suddenly. My lifestyle recently is terrible, lol. I can't wait to start studying for real again. That studies at the university here were a joke, big fat dumbass joke. But then when I tart studying how the hell will I manage with my pile of games that I want to play?? I have nearly 30 Xbox games, and i managed to clear out only 4 of them so far, half's probably started and unfinished, the rest waits for their turn (11 not even begun, I actually counted). Why do I always have to be such a damn completionist? lol
Anyway, WataMote apparently tells a story of a geeky girl who's a total no-life and all she does is playing games and cannot communicate with people at all. She doesn't exactly stray from people, she just lacks communication skills. I always liked the stories of geeks like that. There's Konata from Lucky Star, then there's OreImo, and Genshiken (which continues airing this season as well, apparently, yay!), there's also Welcome to the NHK and possibly some more that I forgot and other that I don't know.
I like watching such things, cause in a way it's funny how much of myself I see in there. (Although, main character from WataMote reminds me of dhuaine much more, lol, mostly because of the 3DS featured in the first episode). Either way, my life's recently not much different from a geeky shut-in who never leaves. I'm spending all of my free time in front of the screen, be it games or internet. Then, there's communication issues. Ever since i got my xbox, it's been all games. I'm so monothematic it scares me. All I can do it talk about games lol. My social skills are not as bad as in WataMote, I'm fine talking with people, basically, but I'm far happier when I don't have to. Even as I was pushed to go to the shop today, I was thinking how good that I'll be going to Sweden again because the stores there are big enough that I don't have to say "hello" to the person at the checkout, and I totally refused to go to shops which make me request items from the clerk, lol. Well, I'm fine talking to people when there's a topic, but not when there's nothing, I hate those awkward conversations with strangers that sometimes happen. And then again, I'm so away from everything "normal" that it's really hard to talk lol. If eel best when I can talk games. I'm extatic when I can talk games. I just flooded a friend with a nearly 2-hours monologue about console gaming, new headset, Borderlands 2 and region locks. Then another topic might be anime and maybe movies, but I haven't watch some of the most mainstream ones, so it's not good topic sometimes lol. It's scary, really. Most of my friends are also geeky, so they can understand me to some extent. But all in all I'm pretty anti-social still, no matter what I decide from time to time I just fail to socialize, I either get scared of people or it just goes bad.
The difference though is that, unlike the anime in series such as WataMote, OreImo and Lucky Star, I'm in between of general character type. OreImo feaures that pretty and fashionable girl who's a geek, and other feature a somewhat typical no-life with no interest in looks or fashion whatsoever. And then there's bunch (really?) girls like me, who while being extreme geeks still give a lot of attention to looks. I haven't been shoping for a while, cause somehow I don't feel the need for more, all my clothes satisfy my current style. That being said I won't really leave home to meet people without putting on proper make up and changing 324235 times to make sure my clothes and shoes match. I like getting new things from fashionable stores, I love makeup, I love caring about my hair (not that I have to do anything lol, the way they are now I don't even have to comb because it looks terrible after combing). I also love body modification such as tattoos and piercings. Not that I have many, with one tattoo, one piercing and stretched ears recently to the size of 8mm (wanna get to 12mm, I guess). I put a lot of focus into details, well, maybe not that many, but I like accessories and such. I remember Leda saying something about gamer girls, how most of the world imagines us as either slutty and relying on being a girl (in case of online games) orbeing ugly and no-life, and then commenting how many she knows are hot, like regular other girls. I totally do not have an image of a gaming nerd, I guess, I hope so, lol. I care A LOT about my appearance. Also other gamer girls I know are like that, most at least. The only thing I could say is that they're plain, like... plain. But that's matter of style. I always was doing something to look different than others, in a way, basically just having my own style, which is connection between what I like and what's fashonable.
Having said that, no more Borderlands 2 for me today. I was playing all day since I got up until I eventually got a headache several hours later. I have one more episode of another summer season anime so I think I'm gonna watch it and go to sleep, since it's almost 2 AM suddenly. My lifestyle recently is terrible, lol. I can't wait to start studying for real again. That studies at the university here were a joke, big fat dumbass joke. But then when I tart studying how the hell will I manage with my pile of games that I want to play?? I have nearly 30 Xbox games, and i managed to clear out only 4 of them so far, half's probably started and unfinished, the rest waits for their turn (11 not even begun, I actually counted). Why do I always have to be such a damn completionist? lol