Launch out into the deep.

[lo_loworld]

Its been a good weekend.
Feels like a looong weekend. The days have just been..longer.

So many things are changing..
and I'm STIL trying to get into the swing of things.

I'm where I want to be...
but I'm still not..exactly who I want to be.
There's many things I need to improve on,
and many things that I'll probably have to change
to improve on those things.

The question is...am I willing to put in the work.
To..put in overtime..be busy.
I actually like it when things are busy..
Then i have a set schedule..
I'm never sitting around wondering
what to do with myself..

I watched the movie Amistad last night...and I could
not believe how graphic it was.
Its strange lately..
I'm feeling more and more affected by graphic movies.
Usually, i can push those scenes away if I can
at least appreciate the cinematography.
That just doesnt seem to be the case lately...
Now, I get more and more freaked out..
and the scenes reply in my head afterwards.
Maybe its just...a sign that I need to
be aware of what I'm putting in my brain.

Its been a good day..Got to watch Erin play hockey..
Also went downtown with some chai, and got a book at Chapters
oohh, how i love books.

But I feel...restless..fidgety.
So i think i'll just go for a while.

Somewhere not so cluttered.