Whirlwind
I don't even know what to say about everything. Thank you so much to everyone who sent me good thoughts, here and on FB and on Twitter.
I'm back in California now, and it seems so unreal. Back in NJ, in my mother's house, it was so clear all the time that she wasn't there. Now I'm back in my apartment in familiar surroundings, and there doesn't seem to be any difference in my life than when my mom was just back in NJ, a phone call away. Well, except for the suitcase full of paperwork, the fact that her friends keep calling me, and that I randomly start crying.
I just. I have no idea how to do this. I have no idea how anyone does this.
I'm back in California now, and it seems so unreal. Back in NJ, in my mother's house, it was so clear all the time that she wasn't there. Now I'm back in my apartment in familiar surroundings, and there doesn't seem to be any difference in my life than when my mom was just back in NJ, a phone call away. Well, except for the suitcase full of paperwork, the fact that her friends keep calling me, and that I randomly start crying.
I just. I have no idea how to do this. I have no idea how anyone does this.