don't mix your drinks.
today feels like years ago.
the lyrics from this album are resonating inside me like they always did. and i wonder if they always will? i don't know if that is good or bad.
no plans seemed to work tonight, and thats alright... i dont feel the need to make any of them work.
i feel... open.
its a strange thing to hear your own words come from the mouth of someone you love. rebecca's situation with ben... she is as heartbroken as i have been (probably more). and i said the same things she is saying now. and my only consolation is to cry with her. i wont say "i've been where you are" and i wont say "i know how you feel"... thats pointless.
but its strange to be the one saying all those things i didn't believe then. but i do, truly with all my heart, believe what i say to her.
love is such a tricky business.
my recital is saturday.
i'm graduating in december.
i'm backing through europe in may and june.
i feel on the cusp. i feel ready.
i dont feel the need to make any more plans than those three mentioned above.
i am reading rilke again. and still working on "ishmael". bits and pieces of "elegant universe" and...looking for something new (to read).