yep.
you kiss me but I stay distant. I repeat it over and over in my head. you kiss me and it's there...everything the passion, the feeling, it's all there but I have to remind myself that you're not mine and I'm not yours. no matter what I feel I have to stop the emotion...pretend it's not there. act like I don't feel it. I don't give you the satisfaction of knowing you can still do that to me. I won't show it. I will not allow myself to fall into that hole, into that trap. I will not be treated like shit and feel like shit.
I lead a very good life, I have amazing friends and I am truly blessed. I will not let negativity bring me down or allow those feelings to overwhelm me. I am bigger, I am better and damn well stronger than that.
life has been really good lately. I feel like the changes from the last couple months really are permanent changes. I love who I am at this point in my life. yes, there have been some ups and downs but on a whole I've dealt with them well and have remained content with everything. it just feels good. I don't know how else to explain it.
so Georgia is looking good...just need a 2.95 GPA and I'm set! yay for the poor girl's Agnes! it's only temporary until I can make it back to Agnes.
I'm going to miss it here terribly. I know for sure I'm going to be homesick like a motherfucker but it's gonna be totally worth it. Plus Casey and others will come to visit and of course I'll be coming home for everyone's birthdays so it will be just fine. and I will always be here during the summer. life will go on and if things are meant to be the people that mean the most to me will still mean the most to me in the end.
more updating later but for now it's bed.
I lead a very good life, I have amazing friends and I am truly blessed. I will not let negativity bring me down or allow those feelings to overwhelm me. I am bigger, I am better and damn well stronger than that.
life has been really good lately. I feel like the changes from the last couple months really are permanent changes. I love who I am at this point in my life. yes, there have been some ups and downs but on a whole I've dealt with them well and have remained content with everything. it just feels good. I don't know how else to explain it.
so Georgia is looking good...just need a 2.95 GPA and I'm set! yay for the poor girl's Agnes! it's only temporary until I can make it back to Agnes.
I'm going to miss it here terribly. I know for sure I'm going to be homesick like a motherfucker but it's gonna be totally worth it. Plus Casey and others will come to visit and of course I'll be coming home for everyone's birthdays so it will be just fine. and I will always be here during the summer. life will go on and if things are meant to be the people that mean the most to me will still mean the most to me in the end.
more updating later but for now it's bed.