brick walls
I feel like I'm running into brick walls. Financially my brick wall has disappeared and I have my wonderful mother to thank for that and now I'm just running into walls when it comes to my friends. I feel like over the past two years, mainly the last six months or so, I have grown so much. I have learned so much and become such a different person. I came home and had to face life. I had to make decisions and was forced to face, and accept life. I had to choose to either remain the same or move forward, change and become a different better person. I feel like I have become that different better person but the people around me have stayed the same or gotten worse. I feel like I am moving forward but constantly have to turn around and pick up my friends.
My best friend for instance just seems to be learning things and understanding things that I learned a year ago. As much as I love my friends right now and care about them, I feel like if I continue to keep them in my life and continue to care it's just going to bring back to the place I said I would never go back to. I don't want to be there again. I feel like if I stay where I am then i will no longer be moving forward as a person I would just be saying I'm okay with this life but I'm not. Not that I don't love my life, I just want to keep going. I'm not done, I have so much more to accomplish and do.
The drama is the worst part because I can't handle that any more. I shouldn't have to. I don't create drama any more and I don't feed into it, it just seems like everyone around me is full of drama. There doesn't seem to be anything but drama with my friends. I don't need that in my life.
So, my solution for moving forward until just today seemed to be moving to Georgia but that has changed. I've been talking this out all day today and my friend brought up a good point...my problem is the people I surround myself with. She said that maybe it was time to change the people around me not necessarily my surroundings. I actually have to agree.
The newest solution is seems to be staying here in Florida for another year or so, just to get my AA and then move back to Georgia. I think that would be a better solution, but who knows. I change my mind way too often even for myself but the truth is clear, I need to do something to stop running into brick walls.
My best friend for instance just seems to be learning things and understanding things that I learned a year ago. As much as I love my friends right now and care about them, I feel like if I continue to keep them in my life and continue to care it's just going to bring back to the place I said I would never go back to. I don't want to be there again. I feel like if I stay where I am then i will no longer be moving forward as a person I would just be saying I'm okay with this life but I'm not. Not that I don't love my life, I just want to keep going. I'm not done, I have so much more to accomplish and do.
The drama is the worst part because I can't handle that any more. I shouldn't have to. I don't create drama any more and I don't feed into it, it just seems like everyone around me is full of drama. There doesn't seem to be anything but drama with my friends. I don't need that in my life.
So, my solution for moving forward until just today seemed to be moving to Georgia but that has changed. I've been talking this out all day today and my friend brought up a good point...my problem is the people I surround myself with. She said that maybe it was time to change the people around me not necessarily my surroundings. I actually have to agree.
The newest solution is seems to be staying here in Florida for another year or so, just to get my AA and then move back to Georgia. I think that would be a better solution, but who knows. I change my mind way too often even for myself but the truth is clear, I need to do something to stop running into brick walls.