Phoenix Rising
So my router sucks at life which means I have no cable or internet. It's not the end of the world and the cable man is coming tomorrow. I decided to hit up the library since I am in walking distance of campus now :). Turns out it was closed so now I am sitting on a park bench outside of it. I am back at school and it feels good. Or does it? Yeah, I feel okay. Anxiety medication will be kept in my back pocket, but for now, it feels like a home I belong to. I'm going to be okay, right?
I am hoping everyone will agree to meet at my apartment this weekend so we can nail down senior show selections. I am really loving "Memory of Water"...I guess I'll fight to be in that one. Sometimes I wonder if my fighting gets me anywhere anymore. It's not like I matter to any of these people. Or maybe I do, hell if I know. I reread "Marisol" and it's sort of growing on me. Meh. It's just too disturbing and graphic for me. But if I get the role, it will be a challenge...one that I would like to try. And of course I have the 8 year dream of being Sally Bowles. I know it's a pipe dream, but I'd be foolish to say I don't wanna try.
Maybe Sean is right. Maybe this will be my year. I'm trying my damnedest not to be pessimistic. It's state of mind, it's all a pleasant state of mind.
I am hoping everyone will agree to meet at my apartment this weekend so we can nail down senior show selections. I am really loving "Memory of Water"...I guess I'll fight to be in that one. Sometimes I wonder if my fighting gets me anywhere anymore. It's not like I matter to any of these people. Or maybe I do, hell if I know. I reread "Marisol" and it's sort of growing on me. Meh. It's just too disturbing and graphic for me. But if I get the role, it will be a challenge...one that I would like to try. And of course I have the 8 year dream of being Sally Bowles. I know it's a pipe dream, but I'd be foolish to say I don't wanna try.
Maybe Sean is right. Maybe this will be my year. I'm trying my damnedest not to be pessimistic. It's state of mind, it's all a pleasant state of mind.