i just dont know anymore!!!
And I'll confess
That I can be a little selfish
And I'll admit
I don't
want you to help me through this
You know I've tried to call
I've IMed you
Theres just no other option besides coming to your house.
I cant believe you would hurt me like this
And yes i really am writing this all online
How else am i supposed to show you how i am feeling right now when you wont even return my phone calls!
I know im a drama queen
I know that my family is ridiculous
I know that im selfish, self centered, overdramatic, and demanding at times
But if you cared for me, even as a fricken friend, you would have called me.
I am absolutely heartbroken at the fact that i told you about my uncle and you couldnt even bother to AT LEAST give me a phone call.
What does that say?
You know i know things have been shitty between us, but i never thought you'd let me down this much
How is it people i havent spoken to in forever have called me atleast to see if im okay. AND YOU CANT EVEN DO THAT.
Lets just rip my fucking heart to shreads this week why dont we?
Anyone else want to join in the festivities?
Lets take away my uncle
Then take away my fish which meant so much to me
Then add a boyfriend who doesnt bother to call
Come on?
Lets go
Lets just keep pounding on the issues
YEA
Maybe i am being a fuckin drama queen
But maybe if i had just gotten a phone call in the first place, i wouldnt be sitting here like this.
i NEVER thought youd hurt me this much.
Ive been called a stalker and a drama queen long enough
I miss the times when we actually had fun, and youd return my phone calls
I am honestly at that point where i just cant take it anymore
I have been holding this in and it is ripping me apart
I love you so much and you are just that big of a piece of me that i dont want to give you up.
But it feels like youve already given me up....
I need help....
Please
Help me