Its over.
I think this has been the longest couple of days of my life.
Yesterday was so tiring.
It felt like the wake went on forever.
I broke down a little bit
I tried to be strong for my aunt and she could tell.
It ment so much to me and cass when she thanked us for being so strong for her.
My cousin Joey was his charasmatic self.
Man i love him.
He just has so much class and this ora about him.
Tommy was dealing with everything through making jokes
He told me to go give my uncle a wet willy.
At first i just stood there with my mouth wide open thinking "OMG he did not just say that"
Then he just hugged me and laughed
The "Brooklyn" family was there.
That was pretty much a joke
Noone ever seems to wanna admit Cass and i are like 19 and 16.
We're always Anthony's little girls.
WELL YEA! Since the last time you saw me i was 16 and Cass was what? 13?
I would imagine so.
They tried to be nice so i guess its the thought that counts
I just feel like i never grow up.
I look at everyone around me and they just keep getting older and i just never achieve that "adult" status
Of course everyone asked about school and friends and boyfriends.
I was very proud to tell them about all my wonderful sorority sisters and how good theyre taking care of me right now.
Even though im all the way out in bumblefuck and theyre in Queens.
Today was definitely my worst day.
I was sitting in the chapel of the funeral parlor and i watched as my aunt went up to him to say goodbye and how she was hugging him and running her fingers through his hair and i just lost it.
I went and sat in the car and just cried my eyes out.
I didnt want her to see me like that.
Not after she had been so thankful i was strong.
The funeral was no better.
It was just a reality i was not ready to deal with.
I sat in the pew and just imagined the figure i wished was there to comfort me.
Im having to say goodbye to too many things this week.
I dont want to leave any of them
But i know whats best.
So im done with school this week
Traveling that distance and attending class is a complete waste this week.
Ill head back next week and refocus myself on my goals.
Right now my schedule seems to be
Visiting Richie for his birthday thursday afternoon
Sorority thursday nite to see my ladies and collect all of these promised hugs.
Friday im working @ night
Working Saturday morning
Then out for Miss Lorie's birthday with KeLLs and all my other favorite girls <3
Then working Sunday nite.
Thanksgiving Eve is gonna be awesome this year...
Joey is taking me to some thing he's DJing
IM pretty sure Los and Dolan will be there too
Its gonna be awesome
Drinks all night then Thanksgiving with the family im sure.
Atleast thats one perk right?
Yesterday was so tiring.
It felt like the wake went on forever.
I broke down a little bit
I tried to be strong for my aunt and she could tell.
It ment so much to me and cass when she thanked us for being so strong for her.
My cousin Joey was his charasmatic self.
Man i love him.
He just has so much class and this ora about him.
Tommy was dealing with everything through making jokes
He told me to go give my uncle a wet willy.
At first i just stood there with my mouth wide open thinking "OMG he did not just say that"
Then he just hugged me and laughed
The "Brooklyn" family was there.
That was pretty much a joke
Noone ever seems to wanna admit Cass and i are like 19 and 16.
We're always Anthony's little girls.
WELL YEA! Since the last time you saw me i was 16 and Cass was what? 13?
I would imagine so.
They tried to be nice so i guess its the thought that counts
I just feel like i never grow up.
I look at everyone around me and they just keep getting older and i just never achieve that "adult" status
Of course everyone asked about school and friends and boyfriends.
I was very proud to tell them about all my wonderful sorority sisters and how good theyre taking care of me right now.
Even though im all the way out in bumblefuck and theyre in Queens.
Today was definitely my worst day.
I was sitting in the chapel of the funeral parlor and i watched as my aunt went up to him to say goodbye and how she was hugging him and running her fingers through his hair and i just lost it.
I went and sat in the car and just cried my eyes out.
I didnt want her to see me like that.
Not after she had been so thankful i was strong.
The funeral was no better.
It was just a reality i was not ready to deal with.
I sat in the pew and just imagined the figure i wished was there to comfort me.
Im having to say goodbye to too many things this week.
I dont want to leave any of them
But i know whats best.
So im done with school this week
Traveling that distance and attending class is a complete waste this week.
Ill head back next week and refocus myself on my goals.
Right now my schedule seems to be
Visiting Richie for his birthday thursday afternoon
Sorority thursday nite to see my ladies and collect all of these promised hugs.
Friday im working @ night
Working Saturday morning
Then out for Miss Lorie's birthday with KeLLs and all my other favorite girls <3
Then working Sunday nite.
Thanksgiving Eve is gonna be awesome this year...
Joey is taking me to some thing he's DJing
IM pretty sure Los and Dolan will be there too
Its gonna be awesome
Drinks all night then Thanksgiving with the family im sure.
Atleast thats one perk right?