no fear when you fall in the water.
when red wine starts to taste like butter i start to want to be able to type these keys without thinking what letter goes to which key. i like the natural progression of knowing what is where and what is what. i'm sitting at the top of a mountain that looks down at water and no one knows what it's like.
it's very relaxing to look at a body of water
when i look at the shimmering
i can almost imagine
that i might have eaten some acid
the clouds today
were a cumulus stratus
streched out
so you can see the blue sky underneath and above and through them.
i don't know if that's the right name
but those are my favorite clouds
with the ribs or gills showing through.
i've learned a lot of things and i've forgotten a lot of things, but when people tell me about what they're really doing in they're real lives now it's a lot more important to me than what i heard a few years ago about what i might need to know.
why do people get angry for no reason?
see me feel me touch me feel me. the who said that just now and i thought it was ok.
why do people disapprove of other people's actions? i mean, it may effect them, i'm not talking about politicians or teacher's or something like that... but peers. why badger a person and put them down when you could just talk to them and effect them in a good way and maybe make them see something they never saw before. why confront in a way to harm? i don't fucking know.
so many things.
lately i've always felt that i'm the most laid back relaxed or something of all of the people that i come across.
is that just passive
is that just becuase i put chemicals in my body that make me not care
is that just
putting yourself in the background of any situation.
i remember when i was little once i was looking through one of my mother's dressers and i found a set of books that i'd never seen before. each book was one of a set that had to do with a community of magical animals in the woods. each animal had something in it's like tramatic that had happended to it, and each had a story of how they had overcome it. i never understood to this day why my mom never wanted to show me those books. she never gave them to me or showed them to me and i read all of them and put them back where she had kept them. i don't know why i never asked her but they're long gone now. for some reason when i was reading them i thought there was some magic key in them.
i always thought i could find some magic key that would put me ahead or around of everything else. but i haven't yet.
i was glad when i went into the water today. sometimes i tell myself excuses why i won't go in. why it's too cold or i'm not ready for a change in my moment. i love floating on my back and seeing my toes in front of me and knowing that i'm not relying on anything else but the water and myself. i wish i could breathe underwater.
today i put my foot on the dock and i slipped right back into the water.
i wish i wasn't so clumsy.
but there's no fear when you fall in the water.
it's very relaxing to look at a body of water
when i look at the shimmering
i can almost imagine
that i might have eaten some acid
the clouds today
were a cumulus stratus
streched out
so you can see the blue sky underneath and above and through them.
i don't know if that's the right name
but those are my favorite clouds
with the ribs or gills showing through.
i've learned a lot of things and i've forgotten a lot of things, but when people tell me about what they're really doing in they're real lives now it's a lot more important to me than what i heard a few years ago about what i might need to know.
why do people get angry for no reason?
see me feel me touch me feel me. the who said that just now and i thought it was ok.
why do people disapprove of other people's actions? i mean, it may effect them, i'm not talking about politicians or teacher's or something like that... but peers. why badger a person and put them down when you could just talk to them and effect them in a good way and maybe make them see something they never saw before. why confront in a way to harm? i don't fucking know.
so many things.
lately i've always felt that i'm the most laid back relaxed or something of all of the people that i come across.
is that just passive
is that just becuase i put chemicals in my body that make me not care
is that just
putting yourself in the background of any situation.
i remember when i was little once i was looking through one of my mother's dressers and i found a set of books that i'd never seen before. each book was one of a set that had to do with a community of magical animals in the woods. each animal had something in it's like tramatic that had happended to it, and each had a story of how they had overcome it. i never understood to this day why my mom never wanted to show me those books. she never gave them to me or showed them to me and i read all of them and put them back where she had kept them. i don't know why i never asked her but they're long gone now. for some reason when i was reading them i thought there was some magic key in them.
i always thought i could find some magic key that would put me ahead or around of everything else. but i haven't yet.
i was glad when i went into the water today. sometimes i tell myself excuses why i won't go in. why it's too cold or i'm not ready for a change in my moment. i love floating on my back and seeing my toes in front of me and knowing that i'm not relying on anything else but the water and myself. i wish i could breathe underwater.
today i put my foot on the dock and i slipped right back into the water.
i wish i wasn't so clumsy.
but there's no fear when you fall in the water.