Taking the easy way out has always been.... well the easy way. I guess not being able to accept the facts is part of being a child and your immaturity. There are different answers to different situations and well I'm sorry you don't understand that. Perhaps I will have to slow my talking for you little boy. Honestly this is my life and my body and ( Read more... )

Nothing much to report tonight. I'm sorta exhausted because it's 4:30 in the morning and I am thinking about how I have work in 5 hours. I slept until 1:30 today which was awesome. I went over to Mark's house with Meg and we watched tv and talked. I talked to Aaron tonight which was out of the ordinary. Wednesday we are finalizing everything. For ( Read more... )

I am so glad last night happened. It answered so many questions in my life and it made me feel comfortable with my decision. I think I'm going to call him tomorrow and tell him that it's my final decision and that we need to start planning stuff now. I gained back so much respect for him because of the stuff he said and how he acted. I'm just glad ( Read more... )

So last night was New Years Eve and today is New Years Day. I did a lot of sleeping because I was exhausted and my stomach hurt so bad last night. Aaron and Phil were acting like stupid pussys last night. We were all supposed to meet up after they left downtown and they refused to because they didn't want to see me. WHAT?? I dont get it they have ( Read more... )

Wow the last few nights have been interesting. I've tried to talk to Phil in person two nights in a row and neither time has worked. Last night I drove around for four hours and wasted an entire tank of gas. Meg and I had a blast but it just didn't really work out. Then tonight we made it to his house but he didn't answer his door. Well we did go ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is going to be an interesting experience for me. I'm going to finally get some answers which may make everything a little easier for me. Maybe then i can make some decisions and make some sense of my life. I think I need to just stop worrying about everyone else and just worry about myself because I have some important stuff to protect. I' ( Read more... )

Hmmmmm.... want to know what i love? When people place judgement on your life. Who the fuck are you to comment on my life? You're not me therefore you will never understand why I do what I do. I don't dislike my life. I dont hate it in anyway. I like my life and I like the choices I have made. Just because they dont fit into some cookie cutter ( Read more... )

What can I say? My life is going to change. I'm not scared because I can't be. Even if they're not here for me I can do it and I will do it. August 17th here I come!

So uhhh three days till I find out the news. I'm not scared because I know I will have people there for me every step of the way and I know that I'm strong enough for whatever life may bring my way. If it is true it will change my life but not ruin it. I would never say that because it's not true. But that's all i got so good night kiddies.

I realized something today that was quite enlightening. I learned that you never know a person as their true self until their tested under hard times. When you tell someone something that is really hard for you in the first place, would you want them to hang up on you? Honestly that's not what I call a true friend and you can rot in hell for that. ( Read more... )