I'm only writing about this cause it is on my mind a lot at the moment
It's crazy how things with me and brandon are so great. I feel like there is so much more substance there compared with me and scott, it's completely different and I do love it. Brandon does tell me he is falling in love with me, and I am able to say it back to, but more so in a "I hope you know how crazy I am about you" I don't say love too much cause I'm afraid to ginx it. BUt he does know how I feel, and he completely understands.
He did say he loved me last night while we were both very intoxicated, but I caught him on it. I told him that before he was just falling in love with me, and that just the night before he said he didn't love me quite yet, *though I must say my feelings just about fold in half everyday, the more I get the more I love!* And I told him to reconsider it when he was sober, cause I didn't want it to be a drunk confession, no romance at all *and he's very romantic* He is also very understanding, everytime he says things like that to me he says it's absolutely ok for me to not say anything just cause he knows I'm a little scared by the idea, even when he was drunk, right after saying it he said I didn't have to. He knows I'll come around, and I do to, I think I just have to get used to the idea of it all. But I really do feel so much. This feels so amazing. In past relationships I felt like this wall between me and the other person, like it didn't go to deep, like it was superficial or something or not meant to be. I'm not saying me and him are forever, absolutely not. BUt that wall isn't there, and I think that has a lot to do with the fact that we have let things grow and didn't rush the emotions. It makes me soooooo happy. Honestly guys. I feel like I have a sense of stability in his emotions, which is a relief I can't say I have ever known. BUt I'm still hesitant at the moment, gonna give it some time, and then let myself go when I'm ready. And the best thing is that that is ok.
He did say he loved me last night while we were both very intoxicated, but I caught him on it. I told him that before he was just falling in love with me, and that just the night before he said he didn't love me quite yet, *though I must say my feelings just about fold in half everyday, the more I get the more I love!* And I told him to reconsider it when he was sober, cause I didn't want it to be a drunk confession, no romance at all *and he's very romantic* He is also very understanding, everytime he says things like that to me he says it's absolutely ok for me to not say anything just cause he knows I'm a little scared by the idea, even when he was drunk, right after saying it he said I didn't have to. He knows I'll come around, and I do to, I think I just have to get used to the idea of it all. But I really do feel so much. This feels so amazing. In past relationships I felt like this wall between me and the other person, like it didn't go to deep, like it was superficial or something or not meant to be. I'm not saying me and him are forever, absolutely not. BUt that wall isn't there, and I think that has a lot to do with the fact that we have let things grow and didn't rush the emotions. It makes me soooooo happy. Honestly guys. I feel like I have a sense of stability in his emotions, which is a relief I can't say I have ever known. BUt I'm still hesitant at the moment, gonna give it some time, and then let myself go when I'm ready. And the best thing is that that is ok.