I wasn't ready for this
So I just got done watching Becca's movie.. SLC Punk! Actually it's Nick's movie too. They both loved that movie. Becca quoted that movie all the time. It just makes me think of how I look ok on the outside.... but im dying on the inside. I cant let it go. Especially today. It's hitting me so hard. I wasnt ready for this. I cant deal with this right now. I feel like my life is spinning out of control and there's nothing I can do about it. I know my friedns wanna help but I dont know what they can do. Nick even called me tonight and asked if I was gonna do something stupid. I dunno he misunderstood something I had said I guess. Do you know how much that upsets me? The fact that my own boyfriend is worried enough about me to think I would make the same stupid mistake a couple of my friends had made? I would NEVER do that to anyone. I could never even bring myself to put anyone through that. No matter how bad things get, I will never resort to ne thing like that. I just dont know what to do ne more....
I wasnt ready for this ... I just wasnt ready for this.