pushing through
Finally.
Looking for a new place has made it possible to numb it out. I am forcing myself to be excited. I found a beautiful house...well a room in a house, but its freakin awesome. %00 a month all utilities included...as well as internet. And a garage I can park in and my own private bath. That is, if it isnt taken and the lady contacts me back. I really want this place. Bad. So wish me luck. And ive been searching online all day for new kitchen stuff, as bracey had all mine and ive been using bryan's. a new wok, rice cooker, bamboo steamers, sushi plates, utensils, cups, mugs, and knives. And a new coffee pot is on its way. Not to mention the awesome red rice cooker i found.
Things still suck ass. i still hurt...but I found a reasonable distraction. At least for now. Talking to my dad, believe it or not actually helped. I still hurt very badly, but at least I can push it down a bit now. Face the day without bursting into tears. Not panic when they talk, text, or go out. I doubt it will be like this everyday, but im just glad to get through even one without feeling like im falling down this endless tunnel. Mind you, some of the "ok-ness" was faked...but thats life. I made it. Now to get through tomorrow and the next day.
Me
Looking for a new place has made it possible to numb it out. I am forcing myself to be excited. I found a beautiful house...well a room in a house, but its freakin awesome. %00 a month all utilities included...as well as internet. And a garage I can park in and my own private bath. That is, if it isnt taken and the lady contacts me back. I really want this place. Bad. So wish me luck. And ive been searching online all day for new kitchen stuff, as bracey had all mine and ive been using bryan's. a new wok, rice cooker, bamboo steamers, sushi plates, utensils, cups, mugs, and knives. And a new coffee pot is on its way. Not to mention the awesome red rice cooker i found.
Things still suck ass. i still hurt...but I found a reasonable distraction. At least for now. Talking to my dad, believe it or not actually helped. I still hurt very badly, but at least I can push it down a bit now. Face the day without bursting into tears. Not panic when they talk, text, or go out. I doubt it will be like this everyday, but im just glad to get through even one without feeling like im falling down this endless tunnel. Mind you, some of the "ok-ness" was faked...but thats life. I made it. Now to get through tomorrow and the next day.
Me