please let me the fuck off
i honestly can not stay another minute in this house.
how can someone go from treating you so good to treating you like shit?
how can someone that was supposed to love you and want you in their future- their life, go to not even understanding why you give a shit if they are ok or not? to calling you a bitch for being concerned? to saying the most hurtful, hateful things that could possibly come out of their mouths?
how is it that now im being called crazy, when I didnt even get the time to heal before he found someone he wanted to spend time with more?
im sick of arguing. im sick of caring and worrying. im sick of hurting and feeling like shit and having the one person who matters most act like he doesnt even care. im sick of being in love.
i have no where to go to escape this hell. i dont want to do this anymore. i cant escape my pain and anger and frustration. i dont want to be home. i dont want to have to look at him again. i want to hate him so bad, and i cant.
why cant i ever get a moment of peace? and why, when i do, does it end in such a horrible fucking way? i dont even have my best friend in him anymore. i have nothing.
and yes. it is a big fucking deal. i dont want to die, but i sure as fuck wish i were dead. because i honestly dont know where to go from here. i took too big of a chance this time. i cant regret it, it was the best thing ive ever had while i had it. but now its just the worst. and i cant blame anyone except myself. the one lesson i failed to learn was trust. i put too much of myself in it this time. i let myself fall too far, too fast. it was all just way too perfect, and i should have seen that. i, of all people, should know by now that everything eventually falls apart. atleast with me.
here comes the moment youve all been waiting for:
this girl is done with opening herself up and letting people in. this time has seriously about killed me. finding love like i found is not worth hurting the way i do right now. and its certainly not worth watching someone else get to be given all that when you havent really even had the time to let things sink in. ive been broken too badly. its just not worth it anymore. he wasnt just the one that truly fit into my heart....he was the one that broke the camel's back.
me
how can someone go from treating you so good to treating you like shit?
how can someone that was supposed to love you and want you in their future- their life, go to not even understanding why you give a shit if they are ok or not? to calling you a bitch for being concerned? to saying the most hurtful, hateful things that could possibly come out of their mouths?
how is it that now im being called crazy, when I didnt even get the time to heal before he found someone he wanted to spend time with more?
im sick of arguing. im sick of caring and worrying. im sick of hurting and feeling like shit and having the one person who matters most act like he doesnt even care. im sick of being in love.
i have no where to go to escape this hell. i dont want to do this anymore. i cant escape my pain and anger and frustration. i dont want to be home. i dont want to have to look at him again. i want to hate him so bad, and i cant.
why cant i ever get a moment of peace? and why, when i do, does it end in such a horrible fucking way? i dont even have my best friend in him anymore. i have nothing.
and yes. it is a big fucking deal. i dont want to die, but i sure as fuck wish i were dead. because i honestly dont know where to go from here. i took too big of a chance this time. i cant regret it, it was the best thing ive ever had while i had it. but now its just the worst. and i cant blame anyone except myself. the one lesson i failed to learn was trust. i put too much of myself in it this time. i let myself fall too far, too fast. it was all just way too perfect, and i should have seen that. i, of all people, should know by now that everything eventually falls apart. atleast with me.
here comes the moment youve all been waiting for:
this girl is done with opening herself up and letting people in. this time has seriously about killed me. finding love like i found is not worth hurting the way i do right now. and its certainly not worth watching someone else get to be given all that when you havent really even had the time to let things sink in. ive been broken too badly. its just not worth it anymore. he wasnt just the one that truly fit into my heart....he was the one that broke the camel's back.
me